Coquito 03

Coquito 03

Coquito, here showing that she not only has a pretty face and smile, she also has fantastilicious legs.

Comparison

Comparison

One with my natural hair, other with wig.

But my hair didn't got the time to properly dry, so it looks a little flat. But one good thing is that its almost as long as the wig, on a darker color.

About the dress I liked the patter-colors of the fabric, but the style of the dress kind of makes me look without any figure.

Kisses
Jessica

Coquito 02

Coquito 02

Here Coquito, greeting us with a smile, just before she entered the photo stand, for the new Hugo Roach campaign.

Killing time

Killing time

In an Answer
- What you doing??
- Here just Killing time.

In a kids joke
- You know our lazy neighbor, he got arrested.
- What for??
- For being a killer
- A killer, how, who did he killed???
- Because he was just killing time.

On mythology
If I remember correctly what they taught me at school, Zeus, to become king of the gods, had to kill his father, Kronos, the god of time.

Coquito 01

Coquito 01

Here, the first of a series of photos, of the super-model Coquito

Standing

Standing

There is a chapter, first ones in "Full Metal Alchemist", when Ed and Al defeat the Leto priest, there Rose after seeing her reason for living has gone, goes angry at Ed, and cries, begs, for him to tell her "What sould I do with my life now"
He answers, in a very dry way "Thats up to you to decide, first stand up and walk, after all, you have perfect legs to stand on"

And sometimes that needs to be done, even if one has not fallen, even if one is all comfortable sitting, to stand up, and a start a walk ahead, even without knowing if what lies ahead is better or worse, different or the same.
The iportant thing after all, is to stand up and give that first step.

Kisses
Jessica

Ps, been a while since last time I used those shoes, and with how pretty they are.

Hairbrush

Hairbrush

How Am I supposed to use it, how??

Days to cry

Days to cry

Movies that have made me cry.

- Yes I was one of the kids that cried with "Bambie"
- Also cried with "ET" as kid, now I found it boring, so boring it almost makes me cry out of boredom.
- "Lilo y Stitch" have made me laugh a thousand times (Oh , how I love that movie) but in two times hade caused me tears (when gumba takes Lilo, and stictch says Ohana)
- "Simon Birch" , how not to fall in love with the little kid, and then cry when he.
- Also "Left Luggage", like Simon, but with a deeper meaning and intensity.

Books that made me cry

- Marianela, thats a really sad book
- 100 años de soledad, there were several parts that gave me tears but also lots that made me laugh
-Cujo, in theory a horror book, but to me it was so sad how the dog became a monster.

I am sure there are more, but I dont remember now.

Kisses and tears.
Jessica

Hair Sticks

Hair Sticks

Those are hair sticks.

Mmm, maybe when my hair grows more, and I learn how to use them, I would made an experiment to style my hair with them, in the meantime I can play with them, carefully, for they are pretty.

Dots

Dots

I liked how the photo looks like that with dots.

I have read (even when the new is a few days old) that Blizzard have announced that they are making Diablo III (3) www.blizzard.com/diablo3/

Yupiiiii.

Both previous versions of the game where guilty of making me be in front of a computer screeen playing.

And probably this one will do the same, if by the time it comes out I amstill among the living humans.

Maybe, for its been a while since the last time I played any computer game ( there really is no game that caught my eye enough to even try)

Kisses
Jessica

Bracelet

Bracelet

Put to take pics of some things
Liked it, looks like its going to bite me.

Ending

Ending

Why do tales end with "And they lived happilly forever" (I know, is more comon to see "everafter" but then my question is more that in spanish is put as forever like in eternity)

when the ending should have been "and they lived happily, till the day they died"

Why???

Yarn

Yarn

From the moment Matilde came down of the taxicar she realized she had been there before, the swing was there, and the garden gnome that she remembered a few days ago. Once at the door, a decoration over the mailbox caught her eye, a little fairy holding a piece of gear machinery. One thing not easily associated with faeries.

When trying to open the door, the key started to turn, but at the middle it stopped -- mm, such a trip and for nothing. Making a last attempt she again saw the fairy, and noticed the gear was missing one part, that brought the memory of the day Arita taught her to open the door "it has a trick, you have to take the key away a little bit before it stuck, I think the lock is missing a piece" and like that Matilde did as in her memory and the door was open

To see the inside of a house she had forgotten but that immediately she began to remember was weird, to see that chair so strange but that just a second later was telling her of the time she took photos there wearing a pretty green floral dress, or the table center with two angels that looked so intriguing, but that at the same time brought images of a dinner and a man with beard, ah doctor Algeno was his name, giving the tow angels to Arita as a present.

And while she looked every detail of the house that seemed new, unknown or interesting, her mind almost instantly brought a memory related to it. Why did it seem as if she had forgotten everything?? Why was she able to remember so easily with just looking???

Some noise finally brought her out of her thinking and memories, and she made the last step into the house. While she closed the door she was thinking if it was a good idea to go look the rest of the house or left that for another moment when she was able to get all those new and forgotten memories. Better to start looking for the second letter. Watching the windows on the living room, she looked for the little table under it, she sow two, but no red basket with yarn, or a basket empty at all. A couple of times she looked around and couldn't find it, it was a sign that she would end up looking all around the house.

Falling into a sofa, her mind was battling between trying to remember more of the window, basket and cat, or to accept that perhaps the memory was not that true. After a few minutes unable to remember more she decided that she would have to go around the house while playing with that rounded object in her hands.

Entering the kitchen the oven made her remember of the day she helped Arita to make cookies, and the blue fry-pan of the time she first saw how fried fish is made, or the letters at he fridge that she used to play words and rimes, but nothing of a cat or a basket. At the study room, a table would paint on her memory the many days she spent drawing things, the bookshelf still had those books with tales that Arita and mom use to tell her, the mirror n which one time she dreamed herself as a reflection of a princess, now showing her while playing with a ball of yarn, that sculpted head of Aristotle that freaked her so many time when she....

- Hey, where did I got that ball of yarn - Matilde asked herself - But I have had it on my hand since I stood up.

She hurried to the sofa, and next to it there was the red basket. Why did she ignore it in her first look around???
And there under all the yarn, was a second letter.

Jessica on the Subway

Jessica on the Subway

Mi first parade, final chronicle

And so at the Zocalo, between looking the arrival of the other groups-cars, and taking pics here and there the parade came to an end. Just the walking part for the event was to continue.
Mariana very kindly waited with me while I was going here and there to take photos, until the clock told her it was her time to leave.

While being there we found a couple of the TvMex girls, that told us that the rest were either somewhere on the zocalo, or have already gone back.
And since my feet were already in Pain, and Mariana was going in the same direction as myself, I decided to go with her, and venture to take a ride on the subway in girl mode.

Mexico City subway its always an adventure on itself, and now I was going to go girl mode, But I was scared of it a bit, for the subway sometimes goes way to full with people, believe its horrible when it goes like that, had it been the case I would have opted to not go. But it went more normal, even part of the trip I went on a seat.
From there we arrived to Insurgentes station, Mariana walked to where she parked, and me back to the hotel to rest a little.

And so it ended my part on the LGBT parade.


Final thoughts.

After the parade, and putting my pics here, a couple of friends asked me things, a couple of question made me think a bit more than others, and so here are my answers, thoughts.

Question 1
Beside the nice moment, the fun, the thrill, does being at the parade left you something as Jessica, as a person??

Yes, its understandable that from the photos and chronicle, that it was mostly joy, emotion, nervousness, fun what went there.
But there was also a part of learning and growing by deciding to do something like it.

For Jessica I think it helped to grow a sense of friendship with some of the girls that walked with me, I sincerely think that to be part of it and share the thrill of it does create a sense of unity with those that participate with you.

As person, first I think that help in decreasing fears, for instance at a start one of my biggest fears of doing it were "what if someone sees me here" but as you walk, and with so many people both walking and seeing, it kind of looses importance to fear that. And yes one could argue that the effect of not fearing that its just for that time, that it will come back, and yes after the euphoria of doing it passes , it slowly returns, it does not fully returns, the level of fear indeed decreases in the long run, and less fear is a way of growing.
Another is self confidence, and it was more for what happened before and after walking, and yes a friend that told me that because of what day and the areas I went, it was expected to get lees weird looks, still not having one does increases that confidence to continue to go out.

Question 2
And did you achieve something by being part of it?? Or do you think something good is achieved of the parade existing??

That me going achieved something not for me, on itself maybe not, but after all some events that look for visibility are effective by the number of participants, and you can say, one more or one less would not be that different (with exceptions), well it is the add of all those one that make it as big as it get, so yes I did achieve increasing how many participated.
On another side I would like to think that those few people that decided to go out of the sideline to say "Hey you look really nice", or "I like your dress, where did you bought it", or just made a supporting smile, take with then a different impression (a good one) of what is like to be a tgirl, but I do concede what my friend said, perhaps they already had one.
Same things as with the photos, More photos were taken (that I noticed) than the ones I took, and yes I do saw that many of the people that took the photo did took it out of morbidity, or to have a pic to say "look from the parade, how could one be or go like that", but there were also the ones that took the photo from a different perspective, from the ones that "I want a photo of someone else that was part of the parade like me", or "This could turn into a nice photo (without regards of who the subject of the photo was)", or even as one person said to me after a photo "Its just that your image is so different, not like some others" (me thinks good image)

And as for what does the parade achieves in general, to star visibility, to tell people that there are people that are living in an specific way, hat are not that afraid (as to be part of it) of being them, that are capable of standing to be themselves.
Another friend who asked it, told me that the way some of the participants dressed or acted achieved more in creating a negative image than any other good thing. Reality is that comparing the outfits and attitudes with the carnival here, I really don’t see much difference. Yes there are exceptions to it, and yes some outfits or attitudes go way too much, definitively looking to defy, challenge or even disturb and alter the observer, but the most of them are not. And it is a thing that depends on the observer, to decide which part he gives more weight, that few ones that went on the wrong side or the most of them that put cheers, talent and imagination (and lots of costumes-outfit needs lot of it).

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Jessica

Jessica and the Fairies

Jessica and the Fairies

And of course, had to take a photo with them, and also that way one can see the whole costume.

Fairies

Fairies

The costumes of those 2 girls looked incredible, left me totally impressed, a great work

Nurses

Nurses

Two pretty nurses

Jessica and Miss Piggie

Jessica and Miss Piggie

Even the Muppets where on Parade.

Here with the beautiful Miss Piggie

Girl in pink hair

Girl in pink hair

I liked the style, plus the pink hair sure caught the eye.

Blue Princess

Blue Princess

Jessica visits Wonderland

Jessica visits Wonderland

Totally awesome the outfits of those 2 girls, One as Alice, the other as Queen of Hearts.

And of course couldn't let go the opportunity to take a photo.

Golden Wings

Golden Wings

I really can't make what the costume is about, but it looks interesting

Bee

Bee

This one costume, definitively wins the cutest one, A total bee.

Jessica at the Zocalo and 1000 posts

Jessica at the Zocalo and 1000 posts

Well turns out this photo is going with the post number 1000 (yes one thousand) on my blog. Yes I have wrote and post 1000 times over there - jessica-sweet-tv.blogspot.com

And to think that on December 29th, of 2005 I started with the blog ( jessica-sweet-tv.blogspot.com/2005/12/my-first-entry.html ) , putting just a few things, tests, and at most photos without a head.

And now, 1000 posts later, almost 3 years have gone, and here I am posting photos of Jessica, on the Zocalo as a participant of the LGBT parade.

Wow, certainly I have gone a long way on this thing of being Jessica, that even I myself can't believe it.

Now, to try to post another 1000 more.

Kisses
Jessica
1000 :P

Three Pretty girls

Three Pretty girls

Three girls that looked really pretty, Can you say I'm envious

Purple

Purple

The queen of Purple

Jessica and Mariana

Jessica and Mariana

First Parade, chronicle part 4

First the photo, at the Zocalo, with my lovely friend Mariana, she was the friend I went out of the parade to go buy a soda at a store, and ended up lost. Also she stayed with me while I was taking photos all around the Zocalo, and at the end.

As I was telling, Mariana and I arrived to the Zocalo, thinking we had ahead the task of looking for the rest of the girls all around the Zocalo. While walking we saw that on the other corner there were lots of people guarding the street, so we went there.
It happens the parade was going over that other street, at some previous corner it changed street, and we didn’t noticed.
And to our good luck, as we went in to see which group was walking by, it happened to be our group, TvMex girls. What a coincidence without much trouble we were back together.
And so I walked the last meters with them to finally arrive to the Zocalo. And finally the end of the walking in the parade, for there was more walking still to do.

Once there the usual take a photo, see here, go there. Then Rocio said, "Well who is going with us to eat".
It was past 3:30, so in group we went to eat a bit. A chaos at where we went for we sure were a big group.

After eating, I returned with Mariana to the Zocalo, to watch the remaining groups of the parade arrive at the Zocalo.

For now I stop the chronicle.

Kisses
Jessica

Flag on regional outfit.

Flag on regional outfit.

Interesting idea of this person, that managed to match the LGBT flag with a design of a mexican typical regional dress.

Multicolor

Multicolor

Lots of color.

Hands

Hands

This outfit is interesting. Did he make it with his own hands?? Or were the hands of a tailor involved? Did it required a helping hand to put it on?? I bet he can lend you a hand if you need help.

Better stop writting silly and unfunny jokes.

Jessica and the school girls

Jessica and the school girls

Here in a photo with two lovely friends, that went dressed as school girls (mexican junior high or secundaria) to the parade

To the left pretty Jazmin

To the right beautifull Saray

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Jessica

Brides

Brides

A group of brides.

Princess

Princess

A very elegant girl on a princess dress, she looks awesome, but I cant imagine how she manages to walk with all that skirt.

Pink dress

Pink dress

Oh how I loved that dress, me wants one with that style. But me thinks, it must be a really complicated thing to first put it on, and then walk around with it.

Quinceañeras

Quinceañeras

Aqui un par de quinceañeras con sus chambelanes.

With Ana Karen

With Ana Karen

The first parade, chronicle Part 3

First to tell you about the photo, finally after a long time of knowing her just by photo and messenger I was able to meet in person Ana Karen, a girl I admire a lot since she has managed to get a really feminine image, plus a great look of beauty.

Now to continue my chronicle, Well from the Angel to insurgentes there was a lot of people on the sides, then from there it started to go down, so that when we were just waiting without walking, a friend told me "strange, this year there is so few people". I said to myself, the less people the better.
We started walking again, and when we arrived to the corner where we were going to take the street next to Alameda to walk into downtown, HORROR, the amount of people there was incredible, there were even points were there was so many people that they left just a tiny space to let the parade walk. For a moment I was wishing to disappear, but then just being in a group calmed me down and I continued walking.
Also it was by this point that my feet started to get tired of the efffort, but there was still a long way ahead. and so among lots of People we arrived next to Bellas Artes.

Then we went into the downtown streets, and having the feet already tired , to keep walking required effort, but since downtown streets are all irregular, walking became like an impossible mission. And the amount of people just increased, due to the people downtown doing their stuff.
But from there it was now the last part (6 blocks I think they are) to arrive to the main plaza Zocalo. At some point I went out with a friend to duy something to drink, by the time we get back to the parade the other girls were nowhere to be seen. We kept walking, but suddenly there were no people from the parade. and I thought "Horror, we lost them, they sure are now at zocalo, how are we going to find them there"

And here I stop the chronicle


Kisses
Jessica

Roman

Roman

A girl dressed as a Roman Soldier. The outfit looks great, but I thinks its missing a sword.

King Cobra

Cobra

A cobra costume, interesting one.
Also I so loved the black dress from the girl in the back, I want one like that.

Thunder

Thunder

This fellow painted with thunders looked amazing, reallly an awesome work of body-paint and make-up.

Silver Angel

Silver Angel

An angel made of silver, The black wings not only fit well, they looked incredible.

Walking with Trixie.

Walking with Trixie.

Chronicle of the parade part 2

Before I go on with the chronicle, want to show you the photo with my lovely friend Trixie, who very kindly went to pick me to go together to the parada. Also the TVMex ribbon, it was her who asked me to use it.

And back to the chronicle, as I messaged Trixie to tell her our location, people started to move, and so it was like that that I gave the first steps as a participant of the LGBT parade.
And there among all nervousness and being looked by thousands of people (welll maybe not thousands right there, but along all the walk surely) my feet made me walk a new road.

First thing that spooked me was the amount of people going and coming, logical being that the starting point, surely some were looking for their friends like I was minutes before, the ones that decided to instead of looking just wait till they passed by, the ones running to be on time to go into the trucks, or what any other reason.
Second, the photos, and of course it was not like one could say No being that I was also taking lots of photos, or to avoid them. And like that, while taking a new photo or posing for another one the road was being walked.

At some point we stopped walking a bit, and my friend Trixie joined us, alon the way a few more girls arrived, and by then we were a good group.
After crossing Insurgentes street the group expanded , part of i being that there was noone walking behind us, probably a red light, so we were able to stop here and there for photos and the like. And to keep walking and enjoying.
A few blocks ahead, suddenly we had to stop, and stop for a long time, never knew why. But that was ok, since it allowed us to regroup, and also to take a little rest for the other half of the walk.

And I stop it here for today.

Kisses
Jessica

Angels

Angels

It looks nice how one is a white angel and the other a black angel.

French Madam and Red Riding Hood.

French Madam and Red Riding Hood.

A french Madam, I really like that style of dress, but that would be a little too short for me. See the handfan, looks nice.

Next to her, a red riding hood, with its own apple basket. How many wolf did she had to scape from during the parade??

Bunnie

Bunnie

Is it that the phantom of the opera came to participate on the parate this year, and decide to do drag as a bunnie.

Or are the bunny girls doing their version of the play.

Anyway the outfit is nice, and the mascara makes it stand to other similars, making it unique.

The first parade

The first parade

Chronicle part 1

On friday, after going to say hello to my friend Vania, even when I really wanted to go out to party and dance, I said to myself, " Jessica, better go to sleep early tonight, for tomorrow you have a long day ahead ", and so by midnight I was at my room ready to go sleep.
And yes, not 5 minutes have gone by, when I was already sleeping and dreaming, but like one and a half hour later I was awake again, to bit later fall sleep again just to wake up one more time, and so it was all night. I was so nervous that I couldn't sleep in one stop. And even when I set the alarm for 8, I was already wake up and all nervous by 7.
A bit later went out (but in boy mode) to get something light for breakfast, but even when I didn't want to go with my stomach already full, I couldn't go without eating something (a tempting thought to show a better figure), but to walk for hours under the son without eating before doesn't sound like a good idea.

Back to my room to start the ritual, shower, a little check on the legs, be sure that no facial hair is still around, and to get dress, and the bra being too low, then the straps looked weird, that the dress ribbon looked out. But at the end, I was dressed.
Called my friend Trixie,, that was going to pick me up to walk together to the meeting point with the other girls from TVMex, and well we agreed on an hour for her to stop by my hotel, still time enough.
And taking my time, stopping a few times to watch tv to relax my nervousness, little by little makeup started to get shape, actually had to do it twice, for at the first try, the eyes ended up looking weird, but by the second I found the look good enough, Put on wig, and there I was ready.

When it was almost the agreed time, since I agreed to see my friend at the hotel entrance, time to go out of my room, and to gather the most courage while I was riding the elevator to look the less possible nervous and shaky when passing by reception to leave the key.
And although I have several times stayed at that hotel, and come in and out as Jessica, I don't know why, but that day I was too nervous about it. And to walk outside to wait for my friend Trixie. While I was waiting, I saw how a guy came out, wearing a costume that really screamed "hey look at me", and seeing that kind of made me more relaxed, and forget any worries of me going out in girl mode.

Finally my friend Trixie arrived, and we started to walk towards "The Angel", When coming near, the amount of people was just too much, how could we be able to found the other girls. A quick call to Rocio to get instructions, and we started walking to the street cross they were. But we were unable to locate them. Then my friend Trixie saw her friend Joanna that was like us looking for them
We decide that instead of keep walking more, better go back to the start, Trixie on one side, me on the other, and from there look the people walk, in hopes on finding them. I did found them, but it was more on a lucky second, for after I took a photo, I turned myself to the other side to check the camera display, and it was then that I saw the TVMex girls and Rocio.

I was just saying hello, when the people started to move, and as I messaged my friend Trixie with our location I started walking. And so it was, how my participation on the Parade started.

Kisses
Jessica.

Girl in Green

Girl in Green

Here a pretty girl dressed in green, she just missed the wings, to look like Tinkerbell from peter pan.

Devil and Fairy

Devil and Fairy

The outfit of the girl dressed as devil is impressive, specially the wings, they look awesome.

Feathers in green and yellow

Feathers in green and yellow

This guy outfit, reminds me of the carnaval that goes here on the island.

Extra to it surely being all too complicated to do a dress like that it must be a complete chaos to walk with all those feathers and ribbons. But it does look really interesting,

Modeling with Vania

Modeling with Vania

Well tomorrow I will put the chronicle of the Parade
But we should go chronological, and that was Saturday
So Friday, thats when I arrived Mexico City, I took my time, to go and say hello to my friend Vania.
Turns out, where she goes they had a Catwalk event, so had to do a few walks and modeling.
Here we are, Vania and Me, posing for the camera.
Oh, It makes me so envy that great cleaveage she manages to show. Plus she really looks great in black.

Jessica on the LGBT Parade

Jessica on the LGBT Parade

Well I was telling you last weekend that I was about to do something really crazy on Saturday.

The crazy thing was that conviced by a couple of friends, I decided to join them and the TVMex group, on the LGBT parade on Mexico City.

And there I was on saturday, in that red dress, walking, being seen by millions. Oh the horror.

let the countdown to hell, chaos and destruction begin, in 5, 4, 3, ...


Kisses
Jessica