Veracruz Dancers

Veracruz Dancers

Group of female dancer at downtown Veracruz, where one can see the beautifull dress that is very important in Veracruz.
An interesting detail about the dress, is that the flowers on the womens hair are used in an specific side of the head depending on wether they are married or single.

Kisses
Jessica

Dreaming

Dreaming

Three chairs give her a place to hide, while the crow go away to the dance.
She listens happy the sound of the chickens, as they ride in their horses away.
News that travel under the arms of a countess, and to the ears of a cherry tree will arrive.
Decisions were made in a yellow house, to gather an army of squirrels and cows.
She listens and hurried a letter she writes, blows off the candles and run for the stairs.
To the basement warehouse climbing she arrives, she sings out with the waitress, and looks for a black bottle at the same time.
She hides her message along with her breakfast, run towards the windows, and she begins to swim.
Soon followed by dolphins and Romans, to scape between seaweeds and sunken airplanes she tries.
A wind from the south her movement stops, and for a new course is all she can hope while her oatmeal basket begins to float.
Under the bridge she avoids the three clouds, while the path among the river form the sea goes away.
The mountain down there announces she finally arrived, a pink castle and a honey lake.
A critical message for the king must be delivered, lions and guards she must pass, if the ingredients list to deliver she wants.

Kisses
Jessica

Butterflyfish

Pacific Double-saddle Butterflyfish

Nemo

Nemo

This fish is of the clownfish species, and is quite known thanks to the Nemo movie.

Living behind the mirror

Living behind the mirror

I remember I once read or saw somewhere that as part of a fantasy history, that mirror were actually the doors or windows to an alternative universe, an universe where everything is the other way around.
And there were those were the difference was simple, like on one side the subject was left-handed as opposed to right handed, or the reflection was a good-samaritan while the main character was the evil villain, or that the real world person loved to eat pizza, while the alter ego hated it, preferring instead to eat pumpkin pie.
To those more complicated, for the alternative universe was totally different,and even if the person looked exactly the same at the mirror, in one world she was single while the reflex was married with 5 kids, or being an office worker while the alter-ego was a lion-hunter in Africa, or the king of the bizarro world.

And I wonder, if by some weird literary experiment I would try to do the alter-ego on the other side of the mirror of Jessica.
How would that other me be??
And which of my many appearances would it be? or Would it be all of them?
And if indeed the world of the mirror is the opposite, could it be that there being feminine is the usual?
And that dressing male clothes is what is considered the weird crossdressing?

Kisses
Jessica

Manatee

Manatee

The manatee is an aquatic mammal, that lives mainly on rivers.
Like all mammals it needs to breath air, it can go underwater for up to 20 minutes, but usually goes above water to breath every 1 to 4 minutes.
Manatees are also know for the name "Sea cows"
They are very peacefully creatures, and are herbivorous.
The manatee doesn't have predators, still is an endangered species.
The cause is humans, one reason is the pollution on rivers, but the main problem is boats, manatees result injured or death either by being cut by propellers or by being hit

Green Friday

An outfit more suitable to go out on daylight, as opposed to going dancing at friday night, but this silly girl doe have fashion mistakes.

Kisses
Green Jessica

another fish

Another fish, thats if I remember correctly its called Orange Unicornfish

More jellyfish

Another species of jellyfish

Jellyfish

Jellyfish

Dolphin

Dolphin

Tiger shark

Tiger shark

According to the explanation at the aquarium, the shark tiger, also known in spanish in Mexico as Tintorera, es the third most aggressive shark.
At the aquarium there were two, one about 2 meters long, and the other like 1.5 meters, but on the sea they can grow as big as 5 meters.

Pretty animals

Kisses
Jessica

Octopus

Octopus are sea creatures, they are cephalopods, they have 4 pairs of arms, covered by suction cups.
It is said that Octopus are among the most intelligent invertebrae, and have shown memory abilities, and maze navigation skills.
Octopus is a very tasty ingredient at the kitchen.

Kisses
Jessica

Earring

An earring that I liked a lot, specially the squared shape.

Scorpion fish or lion-fish

Scorpion fish or lion-fish

This pretty fish, is actually venomous, each of its spines can secrete venom.

Aquarium Veracruz

Aquarium Veracruz

This is the biggest window of the main fish tank at Veracruz Aquarium, it has several sharks, couple of stingrays, and lots of fish. Very pretty

Pink Feeling

Pink Feeling

For a second being able to feel delicate.

Japanese Fish

Japanese Fish

Not sure of the name in English, but from spanish is translated as Japanese Fish

I used to have a home aquarium with several of this kind of fish. I really liked seeing them, I wish I could have an aquarium now

Kisses
Jessica

White fish

White fish

This one looked pretty and weird

Purple and White

Purple and White

Onion Sauce

Onion Sauce

Color Yellow

According to the Internet Yellow as color has the following effects on humans.

Psychology of Color: Yellow
Yellow as the sun, the color is associated with laughter, happiness and good times.
Yellow make people feel optimistic because the brain actually releases more seratonin (feel good chemical in the brain) when around this color.
Some studies show babies cry more in (bright) yellow rooms and tempers flare more around that color too.
It has the power to speed up our metabolism .
Yellow increase creativity and concentration (legal tablets and post-it are yellow for good reason!).
Some shades of yellow are associated with cowardice.

Interesting

Kisses
Jessica

More Maki

More food for Jessica

Preparations

It can be viewed as a recipe
A list of ingredients based on powders, bars, liquids to be chosen based on colors like if they were tastes that are supposed to grow together.
With different tools like pencils, sponges and brushes, to measure and apply just the right amount of ingredients.
Containers made of fabrics that would wrap, lingerie secrets that will create a shape, clothes selected to simulate a silhouette.
A fire made of reflections that slowly change things into a desired image.

Kisses
Jessica

Decorations

Jessica in the Rain

This weekend I went to Villahermosa.
I knew weather was to be cold, but didn't expect it to be that cold, and plus it was all rainy, not much could be done wit that weather.

Still managed to go out, downtown, eat, the movies,I watched the Holmes movie

Kisses
Jessica

Lights and decors

Lights and decors

Decorations that give color and symbolize happiness, turning on into our lives sensations that have always been there, to illustrate the star of a season that take us out form routine to lead us into customary, customs that makes us different, but at the same time push us to be part of a collective group, and in the groups our individuality be swallowed by a sea of non-distinction, and among all those equal peers be invaded by habit, to share what he is not, to show what she does not have, to enjoy what should not be, and to finally surface from behind those masks, and find that it was always been there, that which he hasn't been looking, the affection that was never lost, the love which was never forgotten, the happiness of an instant among those able to see the uniqueness of herself.

Kisses
Jessica

Homophobia, Hetero-phobia, Tolerance-phobia

Homophobia, Hetero-phobia, Tolerance-phobia

A few days ago, the government of Mexico's Capital City, approved a city-local law that approved gay marriage.
This government have previously recognized the union in life of gay couples via a legal term called "sociedad de convivencia" but that give less rights.

Immediately after the approval of the law, there were tons of reactions, but the majority were against it. Mostly based on beliefs, religious pressure, stereotypes and baseless fears the controversy grow, and soon moved from critics, to a plain attack. It has become the answer guided by homophobia.

And that attack caused that many LGBT groups decided to respond to the so called attack, the problem was that in most of them the defense was so similar on the attacks, with lacks of arguments, and more in a position of "if you dont agree then you are wrong", and from there moved into intolerance to all those that were not with them. It became a case of hetero-phobia.

It seems even hen a few people try to give a few steps on the right path, the problem in Mexico is still, that almost everyone looks at anyone that is different as being wrong, it is now an age of phobia for tolerance.


Kisses
Jessica

Ps. The photo shows the dress I used for Xmas night.

Full Moon 31-dec-2009

On December 31st of 2009 there was Full Moon, a second full Moon for that month and the last of 2009 and also the first of 2010.

Where I spent the night it had a cloudy sky so the moon couldn't be watched at its best, still its image was still showing behind the clouds.

A nice skyview to watch while saying goodbye to a year

Kisses
Jessica

Pink Cleavage from 2009

Jessica hasn't still showed up , but hopefully soon that will change.

In the meantime old photos form last year 2009 to be posted.

Here showing cleavage.

Kisses
Jessica

Oh, and have a "HAPPY YEAR START 2010"

Rosca de Reyes - Kings Bread Ring

On January 6, in Mexico we celebrate the "Dia de Reyes" or "King Wisemen day"

This celebration is based on the biblical passage in which 3 people went to offer gits to baby Jesuschrist

This grow into the legend of the 3 Magician-kings-wisemen, that were one each from Europe, Africa and Asia, the arrived riding a horse, elephant and camel, the gifts were gold, incense and myrrh, their names where Melchor, Gaspar and Baltazar, and they arrived following a bright star that appeared on heavens on december 24th and traveled the skies until it stopped on top of the place where Christ was born.

To celebrate this happening, in Mexico the custom is to eat the "Rosca de Reyes", The bread on the photo, that is a symbol of the crown of the 3 wisemen, and the fruits are like the jewels.

Inside the bread there usually are little items.

In the most common tradition those items are several little dolls that are a representation of "Baby God" and the people that find the doll on their pieces of bread are the lucky ones that got to offer the food - usually atole and tamales- for the celebration of "Dia de la Candelaria" on February 2nd.

Another tradition is that the items are: a little doll and has the same meaning, a ring meaning that the lucky person gets to marry that year, a thimble meaning that person will remain single that year.

Also to celebrate "Dia de Reyes" on january 5th by night the kids leave a shoe next to the Nacimiento before going to sleep, and by morning on the 6th, a present or toy will be found if they behaved during the previous year.

Now time to go eat a little bit of "Rosca de Reyes"

Kisses
Jessica

Goodbye 2009

Goodbye 2009

Another year by name ends, and more for customary of the date itself is that this year look back is made.
To remember the last 365 days, and try to see how life went on that time period.

What does 2009 was for Jessica.

A year that started good, a certain level of tranquility. That on early weeks allowed Jessica to show off in a somewhat constant way, being out there several weekends.
A first year that Jessica went to watch the Carnaval, first on Merida, where there was a little feeling of "being the weird one" since I saw no other trasvestite person, and that Carnaval was more like a Parade targeted to families.
A few weeks laters I went to the Carnaval in Coatzacoalcos, perhaps because I went there with other people, maybe because there were more girls like me, or due to that Carnaval having more a party spirit that a parade look, I enjoyed that one more.
And in Coatza there was a first interesting experience, going to the beach as Jessica, and even when I went there on plain clothes (no girl swimsuit) it was an interesting experience, I even ended up riding a horse.
Also this year was a first to try doing long nails (the non-glued ones) with colors and decorations, It was amazing to have those pretty nails on my hands, but it was also a bit problematic not being used to them, so simple things like to tie my shoes were too dificult or just imposible to do.
A good year start, Jessica going out, dancing, shopping, travelling.
A time to experiment with my looks and image, to try a few different hair-does, to take advantage of my now long hair, even had a dress custom made to fit.
Then there was the mid-year pause, a long pause, when Jessica entered like a summer hibernation period, spending all weekends on the island,no travelling, no dancing, no goint out, no dressing, no writing or posting photos.
By the time the year was close to ending is that Jessica reappeared, with a few extra weight on her, due to all that less activity on summer.
A coming back, that fortunately had a good amount of energy, where I had to relearn a few things, like how to do my makeup, or to spent a whole night on high heels, the first night out dancing my feet ended up in pain for not being used.
Luckily there was something that didn't dissapeared during my absence, the confidence to be myself as Jessica, to be able to go out dancing, out on the street, without the fears.
Year 2009 ends for Jessica with her wearing a new pretty dress at a Xmas party, wishing that the coming year is as good and xciting as how this started and ended.

Kisses
Happy New Year 2010
Jessica

Sour-sweet leg-meat food-thingy

Sour-sweet leg-meat food-thingy

Another Xmas dish

Xmas Jessica

At the last time as Jessica for 2009.

Kisses
Jessica

Turkey

Turkey

One of the dishes eaten during the Xmas holidays

Merry Xmas

Merry Xmas

Garfield, Frosty, and that cold-hearted-grinch-witch called Jessica, our best wishes, to all of you

MERRY XMAS

Kisses
Jessica, Garfield & Frosty

A last trip

A last trip

Between the port of Usgania, and the textile town of the Oxtatla Valley there is a wall of mountains.
It was thanks to those mountains that the Oxtatla Valley was able to grow the finest cotton of the world, but it was also those mountains that kept them away from all seaports that traveled to the great markets of the continent.
The pass of the mountains was dangerous and long, terrible cliffs and incredible falls were everywhere, narrow paths with loose soil.
For many years lot of salesmen and guides have found death on that pass.
But three years ago a new route was planned and building began thanks to that magic thing called dynamite, and so all merchants decided to build a safer pass by exploding the mountains.
In a few months it would be finished, even now there were a few guides that used parts of the new road when crossing.
But today that didn't matter, for today the last shipment to be guided by Don Ati was to leave the valley towards the old mountain path.
And so in a warm morning of July, the history of that last trip to the sea would begin.

Kisses
Jessica

Forgotten Blue

Pick one day when the sky is covered by clouds, were all that you can see above is one big gray area.
Watch that sky, watch it son intense that the image gets burned in your memory, to the point you still see it even when you close your eyes.
And with your eyes closed describe it to me, but try to describe it as if it was the only sky you ever seen.
Try to forget that the sky can be blue on a sunny day, try to forget that it shines orange early on the morning, foget avoid the purple tones when the sun sets, forget the stars against that pretty black.
Imagine that you have never seen the moon or the sun, but that you know they exist above all those clouds because someone told you so.
An finally, when you have totally forgotten blue, tell me how you feel.

Kisses
Jessica

Sushi Maki

It was delicious

Just one ash

Just one ash

The red sofa would finally leave the house

For years it had won many battles
It endured the weight of Uncle Mariano every monthly visit
It was victorious against the woodworm three times
Its color continued no matter the sun or all those chemical cleaners
Resisted the jumps of the younger kids, and the mischief of the teenagers.
Survived the attacks of the cat, and the beating of Doña Ana during her cleaning duties.
It looked like it would be able to win the battle against time.

The only furniture at the house that persisted after many years.
Its style and beauty made it immune to fashion, style changes, the new colors and fabrics.

And then the terrible day arrived, when by the hand of cousin Josefino, one little ash from a cigarette would jump outside the ashtray, and start the flames that would consume it.

Kisses
Jessica

On Blue

Another Weekend

Another Weekend

Back to the daily routine
Weekend was a bit relaxed, and again most of the time was as Jessica.
I can now say that I no longer feel that nervous state when I go out en-femme. But going out has also lost part of the thrill.
Before to go out as Jessica was exciting just for the fact of being out dressed in a certain outfit. Now the clothes I use are just a secondary thing.
This weekend I only took 4 photos in total, and only because my friend asked me If I was going to take photos, otherwise I would have returned with no pics.
Yet even when going out as Jessica no longer has that emotional state, it is still an interesting thing to do.
Now the nervousness and thrill have been replaced by a state of satisfaction, to feel that the fact of wearing X clothing, or having X appearance, does not change that I am still myself and capable of enjoyment.

Kisses
Jessica

San Miguel de Allende Church by Night

Pulpit,

Usually found on older churches, since in old times there were no speakers, so the gospel lecture and prayers were made from here, since it was located closer to the attendees and also the little concave thing at the top helped the sound.

On the photo a pretty example of a church pulpit.

Kisses
Jessica

Legs in Brown

For even when your eyes have deceived you, its your hands the one that don't let you lie, for that wish you have so far denied, to control it you can't.

Church at San Miguel de Allende

At the door

Pink Happiness

Pink Happiness

Finally it has arrived, it was going to be the greatest night. She have checked the dress thousand times for the last 3 days, making sure no spot no matter how small appeared, any hint of a wrinkle was quickly ironed out, it was impossible to think a thread were loose.
The heels were ready, for two weeks she walked on them at home to make sure they fit perfectly on her feet, An after that they were sent to clean and polish, and kept inside fabric bags to make sure that night they looked completely new.
For 5 hours she endured the process of the beauty shop to have the perfect hairdo to show her earrings, the right makeup that enhanced her face against the color of the dress.
A last look of her on the mirror as she listened to the car parking at the front of her house, a smile perfectly trained.
The doorbell invited her to go downstairs, while her partner opened the door to the guest, every step down her beating went up, and with every word she heard from the living room her mind went racing.
A last step, a spin to the living room entrance, a look of love and happiness, a tiny toy forgotten on the floor, a fall not expected a table on a corner, a fragile glass.
Happiness that does not want to escape along wit the blood, an illusion fighting to do not follow the fading heart beats, eyes that want to take a last view of that smile.

Kisses
Jessica

Before going out

Here just minutes beofre going out dancing on Saturday Night

Kisses
Jessica

Fragile

Fragilidad

Despertando entre encajes y satines termina la fuerza envuelta en delicadeza.
Dejad detras el sutil aroma de esos sueños, perded toda valentia armada de belleza.

Cubre su realidad en lo homogeneo, su sonrisa forzada en lo ordinario.
viril disfraz del conformismo.
Ofreced en tributo vuestro estilo, cubridlo en la armonia y fragilidad de un simbolismo

Fragile

Waking among satin and lace, the strength that is surrounded by gentleness comes to an end.
Leaving behind the sweet aroma of dreams, the courage formed by beauty must be lost

To cover reality among equality, to force a smile on the ordinary, a manly costume of conformity.
Offer your style as tribute, cover it with the harmony and fragility of symbols