Sit down

Sit down
Waiting for my presents, hopefully this time I got my boots.

Kisses
Jessica

Xmas Tunnel

Xmas Tunnel

Form the Xmas decorations of the island, this tunnel like thing, to the Pesebre.

With an indecent monster included (me)

Kisses
Jessica

Con Sheena

Con Sheena

This is from the other weekend, the snorkeling one, that day by night I went to Cancun, and went out with my friend Sheena, here on the photo with me. And a friend of hers, Lorena.

Nice night, bit of dancing, being able to go out. A fun time

Kisses
Jessica

Outside by a statue

Outside by a statue

Not much time out this time, I took my friend Vania to walk just a couple of blocks.
I liked this statue, so asked her for a photo there.

Kisses
Jessica

Oooops bra showing off.

Dance

Dance

And after the daylight adventure, by night she changed clothes and went dancing

Tada

An then coffee

An then coffee

So after walking a bit around the park, my friend sugessted we went to a place were we could sit down and talk, and so to the cofee place we went.
Which was good, since it has air conditioned, so no more worries for the hot weather.
NO problem at the entrance, no funny looks

The best part was when the waitress approached to take our orders and said "And what would you like Miss"
We then talked while drinking bits of coffee, actually I ordered one of thos frappe ones.
All was good, and after a while the fact that I was girl-mode outside, kind of went away in my mind.

I am starting to enjoy this thing of going around girl mode. Even with all the nervoussness and fear.

Kisses
Jessica

Walking under the sun

Walking under the sun

How was it like to walk around in plain sunlight.
Well apart from the hot weather, there was actually no big problems
No weirds looks that I noticed.
The only one that apparently was taken out, was a little dog that barked at me twice. Maybe it smelled I was nervous and bit afraid.

I wonder myself, how many times before this nervousness dissapear.

Kisses
Jessica, who walks in the parks.

Park Girl

Park Girl

I went outside again as Jessica
It was during the day hours
This time, the whole time there was sun light.

My lovely friend from Merida, once again accepted to go with me.
SO at around 5:30 I was ready, and my friend arrived.
My first concern was that when I arrived to the hotel I stayed, I saw lots of kids running around between the rooms near by, and the pool.
And this time, my room was a bit far from the car park area. SO a bit risky going out with all those kids around, but there were none.
The first problem was the thermical change, I was all happy cool, with the air conditioning in the room. And as I got out, boom, the hot weather hit me.
AS time went by, I got a bit more used to it, so not too much hot weather problem this time. still.

So my friend asked where to go, and I suggested a near by park, where I once some time ago took a nice picture by a fountain.
First we went by the gas station. I was indeed a bit nervous of the possible look, but nothing except for my nervoussness happened there.

Then we went to the park. I was nervous at a start, there were people there, not too many, but they were there.
And even when it was not full of people like the other time i went downton there, that time darkness helped, this was plain light, no darkness to help me hide.
But as we were walking around I kind of relaxed a bit, being a bit less nervous, or so I think.

Walk, talk, a few stops for the pictures, it was a happy time

Kisses
Jessica

Sitting in a fountain

Sitting in a fountain

Out side
Out of common sense
Out of my mind
Out

A nice encounter

A nice encounter

Well turns out y got crazy enough to do a new thing as Jessica, and resulted to be a nice experience.

But before a little bit of historical blah
Quite often I receive petitions to add contacts to my messenger, from the Male gender. As a start, unless the adress tells me "oh the horror", I accept to say "Hello", you never know, maybe turns out to be someone nice to talk.
but it turns out, that almost allways it turns out to be the opposite. Male people just asking for pics, cam, showing off, or others things that had no point me telling.
Resulting, in taking me longer to say Hello, than blocking them. Actually I have more people in the block list than in the actual contacts.

From time to time, there are exceptions, any other boy, that quite understands a bit of what I am, and what I am not, and we end up having nice chats, or at least doesn't give me reasons to block him.
Well, one of those nice to chat, asked me a ong time ago, if he could meet Jessica in live, to say Hi.
Of course a a start my answer was no, then time passed, and made it maybe.
So I explained clearly, what to wait and what not, and after long times, I one day decided, ok, lets meet. But that time I got to cancel, work stuff. A couple more time, X or Y reason made it a no.

Finally yesterday, it happened, that Jessica was able to go out, and meet someone else in the real world.
and this time, not a girl like her, but a Man

I was total nervous, for one, I was again going out here where I live, and earlier than my usual car trips.
And two, yes, I was scared of it.

But ok, I tell you what happened in short, since I already written way too much.
I went out, of my home, a girl , alll pretty according to me.
Went up my car, and drive to the mmeting point, yes a public place, a place with a few people, a place I knew quite well.
So I dialed hi, to tell him where I was parked, and as he approached, i took a good look, not looking dangerous or anything, decided to stay.
He went into the car, we said hi, and then we started talking, while I was still all shaky from the nervous thing.
After a bit, we went down the car, and sit down in one of the park benches, yes the park I sometines go to snap a few pics. And kept talking.
It was becoming a bit late, so it was time for my new friend to go. I gave him a ride to the place he stay, and said goodbye.

Truth is, as a start I was really scared, but then I felt so normal, nice, it was a nice experience, a nice out time.
Like a male and female friends, that get together, just to talk, and no more, just being happy of the fact of being there together.
And I liked that.

To meet someoe that accepted to go with Jessica as she is, why she is, for the moment wanting no more than just the chat and company.
Someone who showed respect.
As one might said, a gentleman.

Greetings
Jessica

PS, no photo, I had someone to do as photographer, and I forgot to ask.

The restaurant adventure

The restaurant adventure

I'll elaborate a bit more on the restauran adventure, since it was a very nice one.

I open the door to the restaurant, a bit scared, that they refuse me to go in.
The man at the entrance, just says "Good afternoon, smoking or no smoking"
My brain inmediately notices, he didn't said "miss".
I tried to say with a low voice "Non smoking, preferably", the voice, the problem of the voice.
But then he said "over here miss", pointing to a side of tables, allowing me to pass first. My mind got confussed.
So I sit down, the waitress came to leave the menu, and I decided for a nice piece of berry pie, and a beverage called squash (its mineral water, with pineapple and strawberry)
Some people looked at me, some others don't. People came in and out. I just enjoyed my pie and my beverage
Eating slowly, enjoying, reading bits of the book I carried.

At some point 2 girls came in, Guess one of them wanted me to go angry, since she said to the other, "Lets sit in this table here, so we can criticize transvest"
I just heard she said "Mmm, if going through boob surgery, why didn't she put big ones??", then the other, just said "I don't want to talk about that" and then went to talk on something else.

Then it was time to pay, so I asked the waitress if she could do me afavor, and took me a picture.
She says "sure, just wait me a little", me thinking she will go check her other tables and then back.
But no, she went to another table, to ask the man sitting there, to come over, and took the photo. Embarrassing moment.
He then asks "How do you want me to photograph you???"
And the waitres says, before I can say anything "IN a way that she looks as pretty as she is"
And I felt, like WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW, like in heaven.
Thats the photo.

At the exit, after paying, they asked me to write my opinion, with my name, of course I put Jessica.

Thats my dinning adventure

Kisses
Jessica

Creature of the night.

Creature of the night.

And so, After a fun photo session. I decided to take a little ride around in the car.
Choosed to go with a more conservative heels.
After driving around for a while, decided to go back to the same park.
Walk down a little bit, the sit down and just enjoy there.
Being in black, in a black night, guess whoever saw me, thought I was some creature of the night.
Good thing Buffy, was out of town.

Kisses
Jessica, who remember is not a vampire.

My friend Marina

My friend Marina

Here is a photo of my new friend Marina and me, remember I talked about her a few weeks ago, when I had to stay on the island one weekend, and she was here on visit.
Well I also got approval from her to post a picture.
I liked this one when the two of us girls are happy sitting on a bench in my park, well it is not my park, it belongs to the city, but being that I like going there so often when in girl.
I think this pic is more natural looking than a more lighted one of the two of us standing in front of a wall.
And I know, not all ladylike the way I am sitting, but I have to run to sit, in order to appear on the photo.

Kisses
Jessica

Am I a dancing diva???

Am I a dancing diva???

It said so in my top, Am I???

Kisses
Jessica

Interesting thing, just a few pics ago, a friend, Iandra, said the word diva on her comment.

And then to dance.

I was back to my hotel, saying bye to my friend Fernanda, Vanessa was already getting ready for the night.
My outfit was pretty, but like too long to go dancing, so time to change.
Change the loose blouse for a tight top, the long skirt for a shorter one, the low shoes for the high heeled silver ones.

Makeup, should I remove, then start all over for a new makeup?? Or could I manage to redo-it over the one I had??
I thought, maybe just add a bits of color in the eyes, and choose a redder lipstick, yes, better try that.
Then hair, should I kept the same one?? Well I was going for fun time, so I decided to try a funny look with the curly wig.

And there I was, a totally different Jessica from the one that was walkling downtown just a couple of hours before.

Took a pic with my friend Vanessa, just before going out, yupiiii, dancing girls
The usual, drive, arrive, enjoy the little show there (this time the girls imitated some singers, a dancing boy, and hen a little comedy show)
After that, time to dance, and dance, and dance, as long as I could. As usual had to stop from time to time to cool off.

It was time to return, scary part, since on the way to the disco, I saw several points with police and soldiers stops.
The soldiers just make us signals to continue our drive, so no problem there.
But just a little ahead, it was a police stop, and they were stoping to ask drivers of every car that passed by.

Oh my, thats scary I thought.
I tried to calm down, last thing I wanted was to be nervous when It was my turn to face the police officer.

It was out turn then, I put the interior car light on, and pull the window down. And said "Good night"
The police officer just said, "Good night young-lady , we are doing the anti-alcohol-driving check, did you drink any alcohol beverage tonight???"
I said "No, nothing at all"
The officer then took a look to the inside of the car, jejeje, I did noticed he checked my legs, and my friend.
I was thinking "Please, don't ask for my driver's licence"
He then said "could you please blow a bit of breath toward me to check???" (Poor officer, it must be really awful to smell every drivers breath)
And so I did.
Then he said "It's ok, you can follow to your destination"
I said thanks, and started driving.

At the end, that scary situation, wasn't that scary at all.

And so we arrived to the hotel, after a night of dance.

It was time for Jessica to go to sleep.

Kisses
Jessica

Some thinking.

Some thinking.

Time to do a bit of thinking about this new experience, going to a restaurant and walking downton of Merida as a girl.
Yes I was ultra nervous, a bit scared, but I enjoyed it, I liked doing it, it felt great.
It helped a lot that I was not alone, let me enjoy it a bit more, since I had to worry a bit less.
Also I think it was important that the clothes I used didn't draw that much attention. And I do like the way longer skirts look, even if don't show that much leg.
Being this an afternoon that went without trouble, gives me hope that I can do it again sometime in the future.
And next times try better to go with someone, instead of alone.
I am still a bit scared of the use of very little make-up, me feels it doesn't cover that much.
About being nervous, I suppose that as I go outside as girl more times, I will get less nervous.
Thats what happened with my night drives, and my dancing outs, first times I was too scared to really enjoy them. Now I am still a bit little nervous (which I think is good to remeber to be cautious to be safe), but I can enjoy it now.
One thing I have to work out is the voice, and I don't know how.

A big thank you hug and kiss to my friend Fernanda who went out with me in this adventure.

Kisses
Jessica

Walking around downtown Merida

After going out of the restaurant I was back inside my friend car. And then a question "Would you like going to downtown???"
In my mind the following thought happened : Should I risk myself more outside to being spotted, should I go to a place I know is full of people, that even at late night is fully lighted. The idea of walking among all those people seemed scary.
But then, it was a golden opportunity to walk around girl mode, and with someone walking next to me. Plus I have already been in a crowded place (remember Campeche downtown) and that time I was alone. So no reason to not going.
I said "Yes, of course", and there we went.

Indeed downtown was crowded with people, and cops and soldiers.
In a way lots of cops, means a bit of safety, not likely someone would do something agressive.
But due to the circumstances also bit of risky, what if they were more paranoid than me, and saw suspicious behavior in that nervous girl who looked too tall and a bit boyish.

We walked around downtown, just a few blocks from where my friend parked. Stopping from time to time to take a picture.
Didn't notice any reaction, yet it is difficult to notice reactions in just the 2 seconds one face the person walking next to, probably people didn't even got time to get a good look when I walked next to them.
There was one point at the main park, my friend was leading me to a building for a picture, thing was, on the way to there, there was a group of like 15 boys and girls in school uniforms, around 15-16 years old.
Those are the scary ones, those are the ones that would not stop from laughing or mocking. We passed next to them, and nothing, no reaction.

Then first little problematic thing, walking round in a city with hot and humid weather (and after rain), with long sleeved blouse, and a wig over my head, well, you know.
My friend suggested I removed the blouse, and silly Jessica, first forgot to undo the buttons on the sleeve, so not easy to pass my hands out, quite an spectacle the way I removed the blouse. Also as my friend said later to me, the way I removed it, not ladylike at all, completely boyish.
we continued walking around, then back to my friend's car, it was time to take me back to my hotel.

Kisses
Jessica

Coffee and Pie

Coffee and Pie

Where was I??? Oh yes, I was about to come down the car to go into a nice restaurant in Merida, all in doubt, fear and excitement. But I was there, it was my opportunity to do a more normal activity, and so I went out the car.
The walk to the restaurant, trying to pull myself together, It is nice to have the doors open for me. and there the first face to face to other people. The entry man at the restaurant, and a waiter standing there.
I saw them looking toward us (yes they have to see the new clients) I know they said something , but couldn't properly distinguish what. All I saw was the hand of one of them pointing towards the tables.
As we walked toward the designated table, we passed 2 tables with people, first one they didn't look, they were happy eating, next one indeed the man sit there took a look at us three.
Which side of the table to sit down?? should I sit on the one facing the door, where everyone entering would see my face, but I would be abel to see people enter?????, or should I chose the one giving my back, where only the very few who walked to the very last table would see me, but also I would not see much????. I decided to be able to see people ocme inside the place :D
My friend sit next to me, and the host left us there. I wanted to turn my face to see if he had any reaction once he left away, but that would have been so obvious, so I didn't.
Then came a boy, to leave the menu, for what I could notice, he barely looked at us. I looked through it, and find they served lemon pie, yumiii, me likes it. AS I was looking my friend asked me what I wanted. I think she probably wanted to tell the waiter the order for both of us.
I could have let that be the case, easier to pass if I didn't talk, but then I would be a mute girl. SO I asked my friend, "can I order myself???".
A waitress arrived then (a really cute girl) My friend ordered, and then it was time for me to talk. The girl looked towards me, and I, trying to lower my voice, started saying, "A lemon pie and a cofee", hoping my voice was not too hard (to sound so boyish), hoping my voice was not too low (that she couldn't hear me, and I had to talk again).
But she was able to hear me, as she repeated what we ordered. Then she left, with no reaction I could notice. Was I really passing??? Or was I so nervous that I couldn't notice???. Later she returned to leave what we ordered, being all nice.
My friend and I were talking, a really nice chat, and also a bit of an important one, about one part of Jessica and telling someone about.
Then a family (couple and a little boy) and the waitress were walking toward us, I was nervous, would they have a reaction to me?? but they just walk by next to us (the woman indeed look toward us) and sit in the table next to us (the one to my back).
That put me into a thought, either they didn't notice, or they didn't care, or they were too lazy to walk to a table far away from me.
The waitress returned later, with another girl, to let us know that her shift was over, that the new girl was now our waitress.
Then came time to go away, ask for the bill, my friend left me alone for a little moment, and then to go to the cashier to pay, and back outside. By then it was already night time.

So how that part of the adventure went, except from the beginning when I was too nervous, I enjoyed the rest of it.
Didn't notice any reaction of the few people that saw me, or talk to me.
And I had a really nice time talking to my friend. I really liked doing this.
Was it possible that I indeed passed as a girl??? or I waas just unaware of any reaction and so I didn't notice??? Or the people just didn't care,???
My friend later told me that she indeed looked to see if the waitress had any reaction once she left the table, and said she didn't saw any.

Kisses
Jessice

Is there more to this adventure, or did it end there????

Outside during daylight

Just a little warning, maybe no need for it, since you probably know how I like to write about my adventures for long and long, cut into several pieces each long on its own.
And this won't be different. So be prepared to read, jejejeje. Now to my storytelling.

Saturday morning I jump in the car, driving around, the jungle to my right, the sea to my left, the road to Merida to the front. Just a little stop to go by Campeche to pick up my partner in dance Vannessa.
Arriving to Merida, oh the scary part, the city is full of military vehicles, soldiers, federal agents, police cars, and lots of security people. Apparently some president from some country was visiting the city.
Panic time??? Not really, I was already there, so just needed to be little more cautious and less nervous. The plan to have a nice and fun time girl mode was going to be, no matter what or who. Jejej, Me sounds so brave on that last sentence, but in reality I was a bit scared.
So after a little worry because of the rain in the cty, and getting something to eat, finding a hotel to stay, it was time for Jessica to appear and get all ready to go out.

On advice to my friend Fernanda, who was going to go out with me during the afternoon, I was to wear long skirt, light colors, a more natural "not so heavy" makeup, trying to look the more natural I could. So the option was the green-blue outfit.
First scary part, how to do my make-up light, not so flashy. I tried to go easy on tthe make-up base, use light color on lip and eyes, when finished I felt like it was not enough, that I needed more to hide myself, but left it as it was.
Then my friend arrived, a few test to see how I walked, how I sit, how I talk, to tell my friend Vanessa (who was not going) I was already going out, and there outside to real world, to walk among the humans.
And at a time where there was still sunlight (yesterdays pic), well sunlight didn't kill me, so a vampire I am not. Of course all nervous, I was there to be seen by the people of Merida, witouth the safe of darkness.
Then up to my friend car, a little rest, a little hidding, and going into a coffee place, to have a nice chat. First place, mm it was closed, surrounded by soldiers. So to a ddiferent one we went.

And there in the parking lot, the last moment of safety, it was time to go down the car, to walk into a new experience, to face the real people.
Would I be able to?? Or would I show up all shaking in nervousness, o even worst faint of panic.
Would I pass as a girl?? Would they notice something weird without knowing what it was ??? Or would the people realize the truth under that appereance???
And if they notice, what would be their reaction??? Would they laugh at me?? Would they deny us to go in??? would they say something?? would they just ignore the fact and treat me like another costumer???

All those doubt, should I really go down the car and face all those posibilities????

Bye for today

Kisses
Jessica, panic girl.

One step more

Oh my, that photo, is me, Jessica, outside, on daylight, how????? really????
Yes I did went out during daylight this weekend dressed like that, looking like that, into the world of the other humans.
I still can't beleive I did what I did.

A thousand, a million thanks, hugs and kisses to my friend who was so nice to go with me on that new experience.

Kisses
Jessica