Was it stupid or not?? To post my pic

Before I start the rant. A thousand Thanks you, A thousand Kisses. To all the people who let a comment, wrote me, o said something nice to me for putting my pic out.
You really made me felt better, more confident and with lots of selfsteem as Jessica.

But on the other side.
In just one day, that pic got so many comments and messages, more than the complete blog in 3 months. I mean, It feels great to have so much nice attention, but maybe too much attention might increase the posibilities of someone who can recognize me sees it.
Yes I know I sound like a crazy paranoid, but in part was fear what made me not post a pic before.

By now, I will let them here.

Othe thing that comes to mind, is, do I needed to post a pic with my face to get such attention and acceptance. Yes I know, my pics with no face kind of made me anonymous, but that was the porpuse of it, reamin anonymous until I got confident enough to show myself. Then I wonder, how much did I really overcome my fears of posting the pic, and how much It was surrender myself to the pressure of putting a face, and leave behind being too much anonymous.

I'l better stop writting now, since if you are still reading , I will bore you to death.

Until Monday, probably will trip on Weekend, So next picture will be of a landscape, not about me.

Kisses
Jessica

Since its Friday, and I'm in good mood

I'll post another pic.

Or is it the vanity demon???

Showing my Face, I must be crazy

I must be going crazy, or a demon has possessed me. For I see how can I really be doing this.

But weel, all the emails have been answered, and since nobody said "Jessica, no, don't risk yourself putting such pic outside in the World", then I have to keep my promise to myself.

So to all girls and friends, who send me such nice words to encourage me to do it. Thanks a lot, you did make me feel much safer into doing it. You raise my confidence in myself as Jessica.

And you may say, hey but there has been other pics of you showing your face. Yes but either they were out of focus, have and added blur, or something hiding part of my face.

I better stop writting and add the photo, or I'll end up boring you.

Kisses
From a very nervous and paranoic Jessica

A friend draw it

A nice boy I met via Messenger draw a few sketches from pics I have uploaded on Flickr.


Wow, The perfect way to make a girl feel great.
A toushand kisses to Him

Jessica from Flutter-by

Hi, Jessica has a link friend named Jessica
No, you are not reading doubles.
Extra to being such a nice girl, we got the same name.

And on her lsat comment, she let me know she has linked to me.
Well thanks a lot Jessica.
You can now see a link on the links section (on the right here in blogger)
To her blog Flutter-by

Thanks and kisses to Jessica from Jessica

I need new shoes

I know, the post title sounds like I'm a spoiled brat.
But really, I need a new pair of shoes, that have a better match for this dress.

Those shoes are great for the black dress, or the skirts. But they look so out of balance to the pink.

Oh, and this is the outfit I wear on the pics I'm doubtfull of posting.
I'll wait until all opinions are returned, but so far, nobody has said no.

Kisses
Jessica

Painted Nails

I am trying to decide if I post a picture or no.
I have emailed it to a few a-mail girls, to see what they think.
This time I'm a little more on the side of posting it, than I was with the ones in the red top.

Still I'm a little scared of someone I don't want them to see, finds them.

Meantime, I post this one. I really had much fun painting the nails like that. The photo can't show the detail. But they looked great.

Kisses
Jessica

I'm completely Angry

Shawn Levy, Steve Martin and Len Blum deserve 1000 years of the most painfull and humilliating torture existing.

What they have done is a crime to mankind, to the universe in total.

If you still don't know why, well they just created the worst bullshit ever existing. It doesn't even deserve to be called movie.

They have completely destroyed one of the funniest characters of all times.

those three scums are the villest criminals ever existed. So bad they are, I'm sure even hell would reject them.

While the weekend arrives

I'm just tired, I really need the weekend to arrive.
I think most probably I will go to bed friday night, and not wake up until sunday.

Kisses
Jessica

Back from Travel

Wow, It was a long weekend
Travelled a lot.
Seen really cool places and an incredible one.
Lots of fun.
Now I'm tired, need resting, and still 3 more days till weekend.
Need to go back to work.

Jessica, first outside, Part 2

So I went back inside, and changed clothes, to some more colorfull, denim skirt and red top, with hope pic might be a little better. Not really.

After the last pic, I just stayed there for around a pair of minutes, before I went back inside to sleep (Hey I got to travel next day, and was already very late)

Kisses
Jessica

Jessica, first outside the 4 closed walls

So here is the chronicle of my other crazy adventure.
Just remember I warned you, that once I told it, might not seem so crazy, but it was to me.

So after my friend went away, I went back to boy mode, and go visit places around, little shopping and the like. I return to my room around midnight.

When Mariela and I were dressing, she said something about taking a few pics outside in the hallway, but just a few minutes after she said so, a cleaning lady pass by outside. And that happened several times. So we decided not to do it.

But now it was midnight, yet too risky, but in a way I really wanted to do it, so I went to nap a couple hours. And around 2 am, I wakeup, put a little make-up, put my black dress and look through for signs of people outside. It seemed desserted.

And so I go out, and took a pair of pics. No flash, since didn't wanted to risk anymore. And I could see my mistake, Black Dress, at night, and black background, You can barely see me in the pic.

Jessica's Adventure, meeting other girl in the real world

Here is the chronicle of my first real world meeting.


A few time ago, I met another TGirl like me via messenger, and she lives in a city near from where I live, Her name, Mariela.

After exchanging histories, messages, pics, we agreed if I travel to the city she lives, I would let her know, to see if it was possible for us to meet.

Well a few weeks ago I noticed that I was able to travel last weekend, and after much thinking and doubts, I finally decided to ler her know of my trip, and ask if it was still possible to meet. To my surprise and joy she answered "If I got time, yes"

Well the trip weekend arrived, and even before departure doubts started to grow inside me, would I really be brave enough to call her??. On my mind all kind of ideas keep appearing, from a nice evening dressing, to end up meeting some weirdo or and ugly fat crazy pervert. A little paranoic, yes maybe.

Well I arrived to my destiny, and before I could doubt it, I send her a message on the cell phone. With great exciment I read when later she answered me, that "Yes, she will be able to meet me, just needed to tell her , where"

While waiting on the meeting place I was dying nervous and afraid, finally she arrived, and with a relief I saw her appearence match what she had told me via messenger. Still to nervous we headed toward the room.

We take all our girl clothes and dresses, but then we sat to talk, neither of us making a movement as if to select something. After a while, finally we got enough confidence, and decided to start dressing and transform us into girls. I decided to star with a little black and red dress she had (in fact the only one fiting me and the one in the pic) and she with ne of her dresses.

We put our make-up, wigs, and sit down to continue chatting, then we took a few pics. We changed outfits several times, talk about our experiences in dressing, buying clothes, our plans, our fears, and took several more pics. We were a pair of nice girls, spending a nice afternoon chatting and trying clothes. I felt in heaven, extremely happy.

Before I could even notice, hours passed by, and my friend needed to return to her home. WE return to our boy appearance, and said bye.

But definitevely, it was an incredible thing to do, that I will no doubt try to do again, if I get the courage again.

Greetings
Jessica

Meanwhile

while I write the chronicle of the weekend, I'll post this beautifull Yellow Flowers

This Weekend Crazy Adventure

I'm sure crazy.
Why???
So this weekend I made something I never tough I will be able to do.

I made three crazy things

What seemed like a regular trip on the weekend, had an extra activity.
I was going to meet another T-girl.
Yes first crazy thing I did this weekend, I let someone se me, Jessica, for live, for real.
And by doing so, crazy thing two, also allowed someone to see my male persona, and link it to Jessica.
And not happy with that, later I got a crazy idea and decided to venture outside the safety of a closed, four wall room, dressed as Jessica (Probably once you read the actual facts on this one, might seem not too crazy, but , hey it's me)

I'm too excited, that if I write about it now, I may end up writting nonsense.

But I can say, It sure was a great weekend.
Plus I got to see a really nice place.

Kisses
Jessica

A comparison

I know, it's been posted in some other places.
But I wanted to share my own.

To the left, using pantyhose. (Which I think looks sexy)
To the right, my bare legs. (But I lke my skin tone more, plus that specific day, they felt great)

Just sharing

Kisses
Jessica

A Pic

So last weekend I went on dressing again, this time I made the whole makeup, but now, I am not sure if I sould post them.

So for now, here goes one of the headless ones

Nice cartoon

Yes I know , I'm too old to still being watching cartoons, but hey compared to the crapp stuff on tv, really I'm better with kiddy tv.

So about two weeks ago found this series, called Avatar the Last Airbender, in Mexico airs on Nickelodeon.

Characters are really funny
Aang is all about having fun, even when he is responsible for saving the world from a terrible war.
Soka with his responsible attitude.
And Katara, the balance character in the group.

Plus, the big flying buffalo (which reminds me of the flying dragon dog from Neverending Story) its so cute.

It's 20 minutes of fun.

Kisses
Jessica

Camera Timer

Among the several problems faced when one does the dressing alone, is at the time of taking pictures.
First you need a tripod, and a remote shooter or like in my case since I don't have one, use the timer on the camera.
Thing is, I don't really know how many seconds it gives you, but sometimes the timer beats me.
So the picture is taken with me showing too much, moving resulting in a blurred picture, or like in the case of this pic, in a really extrange position.

So any tips??

Kisses
Jessica

Make Up stuff

So here is the box, in which I keep all the makeup stuff, actually I had very little stuff.
Probably the reason my makeup still doesn't look good enough, I might be loosing some stuff

A question of lighting

Some depending in if I use flash or not, what kind of source of lighting I said the camera I'm using, ISO, and some other settings I made two kind of pictures, varying the tone.

I like the one with a little of blue, really like how everything looks with that little touch of blue light.
On the other side, colors really look the color they are, Just look how red the red looks, just for the red I like it.

just thinking

Kisses
Jessica

Show Off Girl

Thinking I might be an exhibitionist (as in behaving to attract attention) by posting this pic.

I wonder, how much exposure is too much?????

Credit Card People

So going at the mall, I walk by one of the credit card people.
First wrong point, he come walking towards me in such an unfreindly way.
Standing right there, just shout, "Good morning , Do you have a credit Card" Doesn't eve wait for me to say Good morning back, and already is shooting questions.
So I just say, "Mornig, Yes I do"
So he responds "Can I see it" , And I am like What??, I'm not showing a complete stranger my bank card, and why can't he just trust my words.
Of course I just say "NO"
So he ignores it, and goes on saying, "Well doesn't matter, this bank offers you this, and that, and such", So he doesn't even ask If the one I has, already is with that bank, so from my point of view, He has just called me a liar.

Good thing I could just walk away, leaving him talking to the air.

Carnival Girl

I downloaded the other set of pics from the Carnival.
Here is a picture of a lovely TGirl, that was lovely enough to stop for me to take her a pic.
She looked fantastic.

Political Propaganda

So every week, I receive at my place like 10 to 15 advertising stuff, grocery stores, tire sales, car insurance, that kind of stuff. The thing is for me, usually goes directly to trash can.
But with elections coming closer to the country, political propaganda has started to arrive. How I hate it. Not only it is more garbage, is money wasted, money that in a way I paid for. And it raises the amount of garbage received to about 25 per week Also I just can't beleive how silly it is, no real info, just a bunch of crappy lines, trying to get votes of the mindless.
And the worst is that it has just started, and will last at least other four months.

And is not that I don't care, I do, I have voted every time, but I need no political propaganda at home.

Jessica is angry now
To be less angry I'll just post a pic.