Another historical, a slow return.

It's been a bit of time since the last historical post.
In a way that's ok since, during the time in between I have been posting about a few Jessica's adventures, which means I got more thing to talk about the present times than past times.
Guess now its come to end, back to Jessica only dressed inside, not going out, no adventure, no silly things.

Anyway, back to the past tales. As i said before, Jessica just dissapeared during that time, the dressing part felt weird and so I focused on the job.
Suddenly it was time to go back to school, I was going to study in another city, had to quit job.
So there was back to school, in a city away from family and other people I knew.
New city, new people to know, new classmates, I even ended sharing an apartment with a classmate.
First months, I just focused on school and meeting new people, but then all of a sudden, Jessica reapeared.
But this time not sure what made her reappear, just one afternoon while I was reading at the school library a thought came to my mind "I would love to be in a dress right now"
It even took me by surprise, I stopped reading for a few seconds, thinking "why?? why does that came to mind at the moment??" Except for that, I did no more, just ignore it at the moment.
Weeks passed by, and then one day I went to supermarket store, to buy fruits, cookies and stuff. AS I was walking toward the pay-cashiers area, I walked by one of the clothing aisles.
Was it a think of luck, or my subconcious mind playing tricks to me, I do not know, but it was womens clothing, and while walking through it, the tought of the other day reappeared in my mind.
And so all nervous, I grabbed one of the dresses that were hanging over there, And that at sight looked like would fit me. It was a pretty light blue dress, with a few flowers at some points.
I arrived to the apartment, started taking the bags down, it was empty at the moment, so I was able to take the dress down, for a second tought of changing there, just to see if it fit, but wasn't sure as to were my roommate was, so better not risk.
Actually a few days went by before i got the apartment for myself alone, and sure my roommate wasn't returning in a couple of hours. I prepared some stuff in the bathroom, if I just needed to run there to simulate I was showering, and quickly got all undressed, and then put the dress on.

And it was a very dsad moment, it was way too small, my back was now wider, too fat for such dress, at most I could only simulate I was wearing a skirt.
Bad luck, had to take it into a bag, and hide it until the moment it was safe to get rid of it , and it was a pretty dress, :(.

But the main thing, was that Jessica was starting to return.

Till the next historical post


Kisses

Spooky Jessica


PS, noticed two things with those pics, I have no waistline at all. And my hands look so boring without the painted nails.

The Mexico City Trip Part 4

Now for the last part of the trip chronicle, and that was a bit of a spooky part.
So we are returning from the store, each girl with something on hand from the things we bought at the store, at somepoint I stop to ask for another picture (how vain I am).
Then almost closing to arriving we stopped at the corner, to let some car pass by, but then the car stopped and the driver let us cross the street.
There I go to croos the street in front of the car (the other girls also crossed) and once we were on the other side of the streeet the driver said "Hey pretty girls, were is the party?"
How could I not foreseen it, he just stop the car to get a better watch, not to let us cross.
We kind of ignore it, but he talked once more, asking "Can I give you a ride??"Me an one of the girls, said "Godd Night, Thanks but no"
I didn't saw the man's face, but I bet he was in big surprise, for our voices were too boyish.
He then just responded, with "Well, bye, enjoy your rest of the night", I did answered "You too" while he was starting to drive away.
You might said "thats not spooky", but to me in a way it was. A stranger talking to us at late night. That put me into thinking, and I was happy that I was outside with other people, in a way I think the number gave us some safety. Plus we were just a few meters away from the makeup place.
So we were at the door before the car even reached the corner. Back inside, and enjoy a few more time ther being all girly.
Suddenly without notice it was already too late, and it was time to change back to boy mode. I didn't want to, I was feeling so great, and I liked how I looked.
But there was no other option, still had to try to get a bit of sleeping before riding to the airport to catch my plane to parents home.

And thats it, the end of the chronicle of this trip to Mexico City.

Bye for now

Kisses
Jessica

The Mexico City Trip, Part 3 (At a store)

Ok, now to continue to the second out time that night.
So that time we were to go to another store, that one a little bit more far (not much like maybe 4 blocks away)
Again, the best part of the walking, the click-clack sound of the heels, the feeling of the cold air around my legs.
We then arrived to the sore, this one, we could actually walk inside to select the things to buy.
There we were, I wasn't exactly doing much of selecting since I went there not to buy, but more just to walk outside.
A crazy idea came to mind, "I want a picture here", but that might not be allowed, so all nervous I walked toward the two people at the cash-machine area. I decided to better ask the girl instead of the boy. "Hi, good night, is it ok if a took a picture here inside??", she was like "Eeeh??" like if the question took her by surprise. She hesitated for a few seconds, then she said "yes, I don't see why not".
All happy I walked toward one of the girls, and asked to took a picture of me in there, and so thats the one I share here.
And taking the pic was also a lucky thing, for I noticed the coffee machine, and so I ended buying a coffee to help me warm in that cold night.
Then to walk back, and something spooky happened, but of that I tell another day.

Kisses
Jessica

Enjoy the weekend :P

The Mexico city Trip, Part 2.

Ok, to continue, where was I, oh yes.
So I said "Can I go with you to the store??" To which he repplied "Even better you go with her" Pointing to anoter girl.
We went asking if anyone else needed anything from the store, another girl decided to join, and then finally there we were, heading towards the door. Three girls, going to buy, quite some normal thing you might said.
All nervous, (even if I have done it before, I always go nervous) I started walking, but this time, Wow, not only was I hearing the sound of my heels, but the sound of 3 pairs of heels hitting the road. That was like music from heaven to my ears.
Arrive to the store, was one of those that there is only a little window to ask for stuff, and one of the girls was the one who asked, in the meantime, only left to feel the extremely cold air around me and see the cars pass by.
Walk back, at some point some guy started to call to one of the other girls, that scared me, even if I wasn't the motive of the callings, but she just kind of ignored him and kept walking, soon we turned the corner and were close to being back in the makeup place.
We stayed a little bit outside, until the cold was too much. Went inside but not long.
Just a little bit of time later, was time to walk outside again, this time to another store.

But of that part I'll talk another day.

Kisses
Walking Jessica

PS1, For those who celebrate it, Happy Thanksgiving.

PS2, there are a few group photos of the makeup place over this link, I show up in some of them, go here http://lindastvlink.com/GALERIAS2006-NOVIEMBRE-17.html

The Mexico City Trip, Part 1

Be prepared, for this is going to be one long reading and is going to be in several parts

Ok, so friday, I go home, and took my backpack, do a last mental checkup that I have everything, and head back to office. Having the backpack there, knowing what was inside, was making me so nervous, like if suddenly the backpack would break out and let the red dress be visible there in the open, jeje, how paranoid I am.

Next to go to airport, Oh my, to pass security, this time they didn't check that much, so the checking person only saw the shoes.

Then problem nuber one, it took ages for the airplane to take off, and once arriving Mexico City, it did like three fly arounds, SO it landed like one hour and a half late. I was worry, I was going late for the make-up appointment, way too late. Had to call to let them know.

Luckily, the subway transportation is quite fast in Mexico city. So in about 30 minutes, I was arriving to the area, quickly let my stuff at the hotel and run to Blush (the make-up place)

When I arrived, it was already full with people, there was already a line of girls waiting for make-up, lucky for me I called to tell I was going late, so they considered my place. So quickly got rid of the boy clothes, and took the red dress, and slowly turned myself into the Jessica mode, without make up. Bad thing that happened, while trying to put the necklace, it broke :(.

So had to wait in line a little bit, for my turn to make-up, did some bit of chatting while waiting, and also got to see how they applied makeup in a couple of girls.There was one makeup that left me in disbelief, wow, the transformation was beyond reality.

Then it was my turn, I was less nervous this time so got to enjoy more the part of letting someone else do the makeup, Still my eyes got scared so easy. But it was nice to feel how powder was applied, eyeliner, lipstick. Finally, it was time to put the wig back on. And walk toward the mirror. Wow, I really liked the result, specially the eyes.

I sit down, trying to recover myself, and did some chatting with some of the other girls that were there. A few time later it was photo time, a few pics of me, a few pics with the other girls, a few pics of the whole group.

Was being there, just chatting from time to time, when someone asked if I wanted something from the store, the oportunity to go out, so I said "No, but can I go with you??"

For today, thats it, I will continue other day

Kisses
Jessica, the nervous kid

A quick listing of news

Just returning from the weekend (A long one, being mexican revolution party this time)
It was a happy weekend got to go see my family and friends.
Also on friday, managed to stop by at Mexico City, and Jessica made a reappereance.

Went to Blush again, this time there was another person doing the make-up. It was an amazing job.
There were several girls there, all so pretty, got me a chance to do a little bit of chatting around.
Also went outside a couple of times, not as much as I would have wanted, but it was extremely cold outside, bbrrrr. Didn't want to get sick.
It was a great time, I will try to make a full chronicle later.

Good news, no-one opened my backpack, so the fear of the risk of family seeing Jessica's stuff, well that didn't happened.
Spooky news, I went to doctor (in boy mode) and she saw my painted nails.
Bad news, Jessica is grounded, no Jessica like in two weeks :(

One pic of the friday night.

Kisses
Silly Jessica

Trying a few different hairstyles.

Well I took a little advantage of the situation that my friend had a few wigs she was thinking on using for the dance night.
So before going out, I asked her to borrow the wigs to me for a few seconds.

Lets play with the hairstyles.

Left one, is the usual Jessica. I like it (otherwise I would have never showed it in the first place , jejeje)
In the middle, with a more curly hair, lot more hair volume. It's kind of a double-edged sword, a bit of me thinks it looks funny and weird, but another part of me thinks it looks good and a little bit sexy.
The right one, it has a nice hair flow, I like how it hangs around, but I don't like how it lets most of my face show up.

Anyway, into other matters

I am so nervous, this weekend I'll do another bit of travelling. Going to visit my family, that makes me super happy.
The thing is, friday, I'll make a stop at Mexico City, and try to go out as Jessica. That add extra emotions.
Little problem is later I'll be at parents home, and all of the jessica's stuff would be in my backpack, scary paranoia all over. Let's hope mom doesn't take a look inside.

I'll see you next week.

To all I wish you enjoy the weekend.

Kisses
Jessica, one step before meltdown

Another dancing night

I guess I could simply post "An the later that night, I went dancing in girl mode for a third time", quick, simple and true.
But you all know how I like writing lines and lines about my adventures, so this time will not be an exception, so be prepared for a very long read :D

Ok, after leaving the plaza I went back to my hotel room, originally my plan was to use a different outfit to go dancing, with a shorter skirt and different make-up. But I must confess, it was part of me liking the resulting image (and not wanting to risk a new make-up going wrong) but also a part of lazyness to do the make-up all over again.
My friend Carmen messaged me, she decided to stay someplace else, so we were to meet in a couple of hours when she was ready to go dancing. Well I tought perhaps going out again.
But then my other friend Vanessa (remember she went with me last time but in boy mode), who lives there in Campeche called me, saying that she was going to be able to go with us, and this time even in girl mode, but she would need to change to girl at my place.
So I waited there, my friend Vanessa then arrived, and went into the bathroom area to change herself, wow, when she came out in a short sexy black dress, I regretted not changing to my other outfit, there she was all elegant, sexy and party ready, and me in my casual-hippie outfit.
I helped her a little bit with make-up, and we realized I am not good in doing other people make-up with the long nails.
A little bit later Carmen arrived, and we went into the car, ready to hit the dance floor. 3 girls going to Party.
There at the dance place, well I did what I was going to do, dance as long as I could, Dancing all night, only stopping to catch my breath back, or to cool off a bit.
At some point of the night, they stopped the music, and there was a little show, couple of tgirls did some dancing, wow, they looked amazing, and one of the two girls danced with such energy , that left me open-mouth.
There were a few other girls there at the dance place, And I noticed something, a few of them were wearing tall hairdoes, the kind that forms pretty shapes taking the hair in an up position, So a crazy idea has been going in my mind, perhaps in the future try some hairstyle like that, might be difficult, since definitively I don't have the skill to do such. Well is something to think about in coming times.
We finally came out like around 5 am in the morning, it was a dance all night indeed. Time for all to go back to the boy mode, and for me to try to get some sleep before sunrise and having to drive back home.

You probably wondering, "What, no pic of the 3 girls??, Why just a partial shot of Jessica???", well for my defense I was to busy having fun and dancing as to worry to get a pic.

So that was it, the whole adventure of this weekend.

Bye for now
Jessica, more paranoid every day.

Jessica sits in the plaza among the other humans

Ok, time to continue. So I took a deep breath, and walk to the plaza (square), as I already knew, was full of people, a group singing, lots of dinner-food stands, a few game stands, a night for people to be there and enjoy.
I did a walk around the plaza, to see what was around, a crazy thought came to my mind, perhaps later try going into some stand and buy something, even if not eating it, with my nervousness surely a problematic situation would happened. (At the end I was too coward, that I didn't try)
So after a walk around, I found a place in the stone bench that surrounds the plaza, looked for a seat area not too crowded, and sit there, just listening to the music, seeing people pass walking by, hearing the lady in the back announcing the lottery game cards.

Like 10 minutes after I sit down, a group of people, composed by a woman and 3 girls around 10 o 12, was going by all people sit on the bench asking for contributions to some charity, and they were approaching to me, I tried to stay calm, hoping they just skipped me.
But no, they got in front of me, extend the little donation bottle, and start telling about it. Trying to avoid a bad impressions, I reached my purse, while saying something, unfortunately the voice that came out was my regular boy voice, and quite more boyish than usual. At that moment the lady's eyes went into surprise mode, growing big. For a second I got scared, thinking the worst, hoping she just decide to walk away, after such a discovery, but as the seconds passed by, the look on her face changed from the surprise to a sympathetic smile. After that, when they were leaving, she even said "Thanks Pretty".
Wow that was a huge confidence boost, not only she being almost face-to-face with me didn't saw the truth behind the girl image until I talked, she stayed there, and even complimented me while going away.

Most of the time went by with no incidents, people walked by, very few looked toward were I was, and those who did probably just saw a person there, who seemed to look like a girl.

There were two times, that for sure, people noticed that under that girly image was in reality a boy. First ones was a group of girl, aging probably 18 to 20, one of them looked towards me with attention, and kept walking, then a few meters away, the three girls turned back to see me, the girl who saw me pointing towards me, and then the 3 of them smiled between them. And kept walking
Near to where I was a couple was talking, at some point the girl started looking me, very focused toward me. When I noticed it, thought for a second of standing up and going someplace else, but decided better to just stay there. Later when the couple was going away, the passed in front of where I was sit, and the girl turn her face towards me, with a look that said "Yuik, how disgusting, repulsive"

There were also a couple of people who smiled when making eye contact, nice smiles.

Then I received a message on my mobile, my friend has arrived to the city, she wanted me to tell her how to get to the hotel. I asked her to meet me there, that’s when the photo I posted was taken.
We talked very little, less than five minutes and then each headed towards each car, It was time to get ready for later, to go dancing.

Of that, the dance time, I'll talk tomorrow

Definitively, it was a scary thing what I did. I went there alone, hoping that the fact of being a well lighted place, calm were people were to have fun and enjoy, with lots of people, even lots of police, and the lots of tourist, I would go without trouble.
Plus my friend who lives there told me that really should be no more problem than perhaps someone saying nasty remarks, which did not happened. In some times, it was like if I was invisible to people passing by.
Still, even when I was there in a place full of people, I didn't interact with the people (except the lady and a few salespeople to whom I only nodded my head saying no), I was still too scared to do that.
Plus there is this thing of my voice, which is a sure giveaway of what lies beneath.

Anyway, was a little step forward, and hopefully I will manage to repeat it again, less scared to actually enjoy it, or try a few new things.

Bye for now
Kisses
Jessica, paranoid but happy.

Doing more crazy things

Ok, definitively, this thing of hiding Jessica for long periods of time is no good.
I must have some kind of psychological disease, that has as simptom a self-destrutive threat or something like that.
Because I continue to do crazy, stupid, risky things, no matter what.
This thing of letting Jessica live, is so risky, I can't beleive I did what I did.

Anyway, here is the recollection of things that happened, Photo is look I went with that day, me inside hotel minutes before goin out.

So made plan with couple of friends, to go to Campeche again, and go out dancing that night.
As I don't like driving on the highway s when late, I hit the road midday, so by 5 afternoon, I was already in the city, heading towards hotel to get myself a room.
Too early to dress up in girl mode, guess I could have gone and spent a nice time walking around the city as boy, but like I had just done that a few weeks ago. Plus I wanted to take my time into letting Jessica reappear.
So I went and do all the circus that is necessary to let Jessica appear at the mirror.

Finally after more than an hour I was there, supposedly all pretty and girly, in the hotel room, but it was like too early, around 7 afternoon.
And the voices in my head started to say "bah, silly girl, now what? just sit her, boring to death, go outside, let yourself breath", and me being so weak, slowly stood up, and started walking to the door.
All nervous check for all keys in the bag, and walked to the car, and ready to go. While going out the hotel the guard wave his hand to me, quite a normal stuff, you night said, but remember how paranoid I am, me scared that he has seen both boy and girl in the same car, and he connected the obvious.
AS I said in previos post, there is a very nice walk area next to the sea in Campeche, as I was driving aside of it, and seeing that there was just a few people over there, and most either jogging or walking around it, Might be a good place to let myself walk around. But lucky me I noticed how the trees were moving from the wind, so decided better go someplace else (didn't want to risk loosing the wig)
I headed toward downtown area, which I knew was going to be quite full of people, but a few people have told me that n a way the safest place to go out is places with lots of people, so I kept saying that to myself while driving to get there.
Parked the car, and the first strike of fear hit me, It took me like ages to finally come down of the car. And started the walk, toward my destination point. I was all nervous, but also the sound of click-clack from the low heels in the shoes, was like a mini-drum, encouraging me to keep going forward.
While walking, the first inicident ocurred, as I turned around one corner, I almost crash to a man, Had to do one crazy movement to avoid colission, but for a few seconds we were face-to-face. I did notice how he turned around to get a complete look at me from behind.
And just before arriving to the main plaza, another thing to add more fear, there were this 3 people walking toward me, one a lady around her 50s, well from the moment I saw her, I noticed she was looking directly to me, as we crossed, she move her head looking directly to me, with this intense look, and even a few steps ahead I looked back, and saw her looking to me.
For a second I tought "thats it, she discovered me, if she was able to see the truth of my girl outfit, I'm lost, better go back, run away, hide till the time to go dancing", She really scared me, but I was just a few steps from the plaza, So I closed my eyes, take a deep breath, and as I opened my eyes again I started walking.

wow, been writting quite some-lines, better stop here, and continue with wath happened at the plaza tomorrow.

Bye for now
A freaked out paranoid Jessica

A few pics from around belize

No reappeareance of Jessica yet
I am starting to miss my girl-self.

Anyway,
Another one of the Travels, a few snaps of my visit to Belize.

Ok, a quick desciptions of the Pics

Top Left, is a detail of the Lamanai Temple, it shows the face of some king, with a crocodile mask. Lamanai in mayan means something like Crocodile place.
Top Right, is a photo of the full Lamanai Temple. The cool thing of this archeological place, is that in is only accesible by river. So not only one gets to enjoy a nice visit to an impressive archeolocal place, but also enjoy the jungle around it, and a nice 20 mile river trip.
Middle Left, is a shot of the Belize City Courthouse, avery distinct architecture of the one that is seen around Mexico. Lots of houses and building in that style, very nice.
Middle Right, is a little view of the sea in Caye Caulker, an island. A little cloudy and rainy, which was bad, no chance to do the snorkel tour. But really enjoyable yo just sit there, watching those magnificent blue waters, letting the sea breeze hit me. Also people is very friendly over there. And, mmm, yummi food, lobster, shrimps, mmm.
Bottom Left, a swampy spot in the midle of the Belize Jungle.
Bottom Right, a nice sunset view, in the Corozal Bay, which kind of set mi geographical sense all weird, since i was like, "ehm, but doesnt the sun hides over the ocean on the other side???", anyway it was cool, and love the shape of the clod in the middle, quite scary.

It was great, real fun there. A little tired of too much walking, too much bus jumping.

Anyway, its all for this week.
Hopefully, I will manage to make Jessica reappear this weekend, so I won't bore you with more of my trip pics.



Kisses
Jessica

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A few animals from Belize

The biological entity or body that contains Jessica is back from a few days of travel.
Hopefully Jessica will be back soon as well.

Well did a few things in the travel, It was a big rainny.
But as one of the tour-guide people said, "Got to enjoy both parts of the rainforest, the rain and the forest"
It was a great trip, I really enjoy it.

One of the stops was the Belize Zoo and the Baboon Reserve (Actually is howler monkeys there). First one was a little sunny, second rainy, got to see some monkeys there but no pics, my camera is not waterproof yet.
Great thing, got to see in live some animals I have only seen in pics or the discovery shows.

So I wanted to share a few of thems. Really pretty animals.

First a cute anteater, its so, so cute.
Next an ocelot sleeping in top of one tree. Looks like a nice little kitty.
There is an eagle, Interesting thing was how she moved her head.
Then a Green Toucannete, Love the green tones of the feathers.
Next a Jaguar, wow I am always impressed by those big felines.
A cute little coati, They look funny.
Followed by a puma, wow probably can't see it in small, but the blue eyes, so intense. Probably was thinking how yummi would be to eat me, jejejeje
Next a Toucan, I like the yellow spot in their chest. and they have such an impressive beak. Amazingly pretty animals.
Last one, the one that impressed me the more, A tapir, not sure what exactly they are, but they look so different, like some creature from a fictional plannet.

So there are a few Belize animals, hopefully soon I can get a few new pictures of Jessica, so no more boring you with pics from my trips.

Kisses
Jessica, the animal watcher.


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