A big Splash

To see it bigger, go here http://farm1.static.flickr.com/164/374854951_94b8b1ef14_b.jpg

I really liked this one, Show the water in motion.
The ocean waters, come and go, come and go.
Like things in life, they come an go, come and go again.

Like Jessica, that has come and go.
In moments of my life, I was send this thing of being Jessica away, for many reasons.
In some of them thinking. It was the last one, that its gone forever.
Yet she comes back, like the ocean water.

Jessica

PS. Ah that secret image, better not.

A sunday at the beach

Ok, since this weekend had to stay in the island due to work on Saturday. Prep for end of Month. I decided to go to the beach on Sunday.
Here in the island there are two beach areas at each end. One is really not that nice, the other is nice but usually crowded of people, families with kids.
So when I want to really enjoy the beach I drive a little bit more, into the beach area by the Highway. Very few people there, sometimes even alone.
Got to enjoy the beach all for myself.
This weekend it was bit windy, not as good for swimming, many waves. So had to stay near the shore. Also not so sunny, but thats good, better not get sunburns again.

Now the pics.
Top Left, some finding among the seashells, Yes I moved them a bit to make them look together in the pic.
Top Right, more seashells, As I said, being a beach rarelly visited by humans, it has some really nice shell banks.
Medium Left, some seabirds. There were a few groups, from big Pelicans (who always fly away when I approached) to this ones, and some other little ones, that run away instead of fly.
Medium Right, some dead tree in the beach, It makes a great picture frame.
Bottom Left, one wave breaking against some rocks, It really splashed big. I like sitting in the rock, oposed to the sea, and let the water hit my back. Like a little massage.
Bottom Right, the waves breaking to the beach shore.


Just a bit to show the beach near here.

Kisses
seaGirl Jessica

big image here http://farm1.static.flickr.com/146/374851687_a3706c2abd_o.jpg

A curly monday

My mind refuses to work on writting.
So just a bit explaining of the pic.
Well I asked my friend to borrow me her wig, the curly one.
Did a bit of experimenting with the image.
It looks different. It helps framing the face. But also looks like too big. I look like a microphone or popsicle.
Yet is fun to try and see new looks.


Kisses
Curly Jessica

Here comes the silly Jessica

I love walking around, just seeing things. Not going anywhere, not looking for something in specific. Just walking and seeing things arounds.
sometimes I see interesting things, sometimes I don't.

I love drawing circles in pieces of paper, just at random, and then trying to find figures among the crossing of the circles.
Sometimes I found shapes, and do a drawing of it. Sometimes its just circles at random and to the garbage bin it goes.

I like making airplanes with paper.
Sometimes the fly. Sometimes they don't.

I like putting make-up, wearing skirt, and long hair.
sometimes I look like a girl. Sometimes I don't.

Kisses

Sometimes Jessica, Sometimes not.

Movie: The cube

Ok, another Movie Wednesday
This time I will talk about a movie I enjoyed a lot. Its called "The Cube".
Again, if you haven't seen it, better go watch it before you read my post.

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Well the movie is about a group of people that suddenly find themselves looked in a cubic room, of what seems to be a huge cube, made of smaller cubic rooms.
They are a trap experts, a cop, a doctor, a girl in school who happens to be good at math, some designer, an autist guy.
The thing is that apparently some of the cubic rooms have traps, that would kill them. And they have the hope that there is a way out of that place, back to the safety of home.
So the movie basically goes about them moving from rooom to room, trying to avoid the traps, discovering the secrets of the rooms.
But at the same time, discoverying the secrets of themselves, the tensions of being constrained, the search of control and power as means to keep that hope, that it is indeed a way outside the big cube.
ok, so basically thats the plot of the story.

Might look so simple, but its great of how a simple idea goes into the complexity that the movie shows.
Specifically, all the relations between the people in the cube, how they evolve, change, during the little time they are there.

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How it is true what one of they said, well not in that words, but its the idea, How the best trap to keep them from surviving-scaping, is not the one in the next room, but the one in the rom they are, themselves.
Other is how the cop keeps insisting on how everyone has a purpose to be in the cube, yet he doesn't seem to have one. Maybe except for.
It is a really good movie even with the little mistakes, details it shows.

Well its all for today movie post.

Kisses
Jessica.

Izamal Part 2

As told yesterday, Izamal mixes two periods of time. The pyramids I already showed. and the religious architecture from the Spanish conquista Time and the old haciendas.
Perhaps by putting them appart in the photo collections I have took the magic of the mix away, maybe. But then maybe, that way you can see both things so different and try to imagine them together.

So I will go on to the pics.

Top Left, is a photo of one of the streets in the main area of Izamal, All painted in Yellow, with little withe details. It makes the town look so similar and different. Since it show the creativity of the house owners to make their houses unique, even when being so similar.
Top Center, is a photo of the Patio and Front face of the Main church, the Temple of the Pure Conception (translation probably doesn't make sense, so the name in spanish is "templo de la Purisima Concepcion") that also worked as convent. Is a really big patio, I wanted so much to start running around in the green grass (but is not allowed).
Top Right, is a photo of the detail of the window in the front of the church. A nice work of color glass, picturing the virgin of Izamal. Says there that the virgin was brought from Guatemala, and also at some point a group of people try to steal them, and it became so heavy they could not lift it.
Medium Left, is a nice kiosk in one of the parks in Izamal, during the day it is quite empty, sun and hot weather, but once night arrives the parks get crowded of people, and is really nice.
Medium Center, is a photo of the back part of the church, and the building that works as convent, "the Convent of San Francisco de Pauda". I liked this picture I took by night since it makes it look even older (and yes a bit scary)
Medium Right, some corner in Izamal have names, like the corner of the bull, the corner of the flower, or in this case the corner of the elefant. Really nice.
Bottom Left, in the park next to the main church, there is this carriages with horses named "Calesas", for a small fee they can take you around town, explaining a little bit of the buildings. Really Nice trip. Plus even when walking around town, the clip-clip, clash sounds of the Calesas moving around is amazing.
Bottom Center, is a photo of the church patio by sun-down, before night arrived. I like the clouds, and that green low in the corner.
Bottom Right, is one of the Henequen Fields around Izamal. Henequen was used to make bags, cest, furniture, and was the main economic power in Yucatan, Big haciendas and fortunes where made of Henequen. Now it is mainly used for handicrafts and liquor.

Ok, thats just a taste of Izamal.
By night they make a light and sound show in the church patio really great.
I am posting a short clipp video of it over youtube -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ee5uA4obEFw
Its not all, it looks dark, and it looks out of frame, since I mainly just put the camera over my knee to record and forgot about it while I looked the show.

Well, thats it for today.

Kisses
Jessica, who now sees yellow everywhere.

For bigger image go here http://farm1.static.flickr.com/119/367331514_8303f9ffe7_o.jpg

Pyramids of Izamal

This weekend I Went to the lovely town of Izamal, and it does live to the name of "Magical Town" that tourist autorities give.

The town has a mix of 2 times, that gives it that special touch.
It has Mayan pyramids, so you can feel the energy of the ancient times.
It has Colonial Architecture, from the times of the Spanish Conquista and the old Haciendas.
It really is an interesting Mix.

So today, I will show you the first part, the Pyramids.
So the little booklet says that the Mayan City, was dedicated to Itzamna (which gave the name Izamal when put it in Spanish) the creator. It was also a place of cult to Kinich, the god of Sun.
It was one of the big CEremonial Cities of the Mayans, only rivaled by _Uxmal and ChichenItza.
There were supposed to be 7 pyramids there on the mayan times, I saw 5 visited them, another one is located under the church (that makes 6), The other one probably is still to be found, or lost.
There are houses, around the pyramids, Imagine how cool it would be to say "I live next to a pyramid".

Now to the pictures.

Top Left, Is the view of the Pyramid of Kinich Kak Moo, which is the third biggest Mayan Pyramid in Mexico. The Photo was taken from the top of the Piramid of Itzamatul
Top Right, Is a close Photo of the top Pyramid of Kinich. You can climb all the way, and get a super view of the town.
Middle Left, a detail of one Pyramid.
Middle Right, this is another photo of the top of Kinich Pyramid. You climb some stirs to a fits top of the pyramid, and there you see , that there is that second Pyramid back there, more to climb.
Bottom Left, is the side of the pyramid of Habuc.
Bottom Right, Is the pyramid of Itzamatul, also good one to climb, and with a great view.

Bye for now

Jessica, the Silly Archeologist.


To see the bigger image go here http://farm1.static.flickr.com/121/365985178_1b86678633_o.jpg

I tried to look cute, but ended up looking Silly.

I used to play with Lego Bricks when I was a kid.
I built houses, buildings, cars, spaceships. Sometimes I tried to build other things, like big animals, or robots.
But the thing I loved to build the most where big cubes.
I don't know why, but the shape of a big cube was so simple yet so brivant, perhaps it was the colors.
Plus it was easier to store them that way.
So that way it was fun to put everything back in order after playing.
I miss my Lego blocks.

Another week is coming to an end. THis weekend will go on tourist trip. Will have to do it in the boy appereance.
So I took away a few hours of sleep last night, and had a bit of a photo-session. No going out driving this time, it was already way too late.
There it is again, the creepy looking smile.
It rained during the early hour today, 4 am, quite some rain, some of the island street are covered in water.
MY computer is doing funny things when burning DVD's, it is burning at 0.7x speed, when in theory should do 8x, and as fact used to do 6.7x. Stupid technology.

Till next week.

Enjoy your weekends

Kisses
Jessica.

Movie : Dark City

Ok been long since I talked about a movie in the blog, and I think its time to bring that part of the blog back.
And since here in Mexico wednesday is the worst day to go to a movie theater, I will use wednesday to talk about movies I have seen, that are easy to rent.

So today I'll talk about a movie called "Dark City"
I'll try to give a little bit about what the movie is and why I like it without giving too much spoilers.
But even so, if you haven't seen i, and want to enjoy the mistrious atmosphere of the movie, better go see it first, without reading my post, then you can comeback and say if you like it :D



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spoilers warning
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Ok, the movie goes about a man who wakes up in a hotel room , where there is a dead girl, he lost all of his memories.
Suddenly he has to run around trying to scape from the cops that have him as primer suspect of a series of murders.
Trying to scape from a group of strangers, who try to do him something apparently nasty, and they don't even look human.
Trying to recover his memories, trying to find out if he indeed is the murder, trying to remember if that woman who claims to be his wife really is.
Trying to solve the mistery of this weird doctor who says he knows about him, and is apparently cooperating with the strangers.
And with that he would end up discovering the ugly dark secret that lies in the city, of the things that happens, of why of his memories confusion, and who the strangers are, and why is allways dark.

Hope I didn't gave enough details to ruin the plot, but enough to get the idea of the movie.


There are several things I like of the movie.
First the atmosphere, It is all dark, blacks, grays and browns. It gives you the feeling of something wrong just around the corner, lying inside the shadows.
Then its the buildings, all so look like industrial complexes, like so impersonal (which has lot to do with the movie), and also like so mixed out. I like the feeling of the cars and clothes that have that old look, like from a 50s gangster movie.
I found cute the little stranger, the one that looked like a kid, and at the points of where it put the evil face, it transformed so much.
And I liked the story, is entertaining, yet simple.

There are a couple of things in the movie that put me on to thinking.
First is the thing about the memories (the imprinting as it is called on the movie), do memories rule who we are? are we today the result of our memories? would a lost memory change who I am?? would a false memory change who I am?? Am I really the logical result of the sum of my memories??
If so what is it the memories than defined this Jessica? Are those memories the historical post I have written here?? If so then why that first memory if just told the first half, would look like something that would no be the starting point??
And if so, wouldn't it just be a consecuence of a previous memory, a memory I don't relate to Jessica? Then what was that first memory that was the defining point?

Memories, something to think about indeed

But better stop the question before the headache goes bigger.

Kisses
Jessica

Historical, a bit of time and some door scary moments

Ok, time for another historical post. Last time I told you about the "bra shopping experience"
I didn't got to buy a bra while I lived in that city, but I dod managed to come with one outfit. It was not easy to dress up, sharing the little apartment-like thing with a classmate, but I managed to get some time.

A couple of little spooky times happened during those months.

One week, my classmate was to go back to his home, so it was one week, all alone for me. So I used all the time I was at the apartment, to be girly dressed. Well one day while watching a movie I felt sleep dressed in girl mode.
And then later that night the sound of someone trying to open the door woke me up, and then I realized I was still in girl clothes, and it was just a matter of time for my classmate to go inside, I could run to hide, but still. And why was my classmate arriving days earlier.
Then as I was running toward my bedroom the sound stopped. I little break, I used in the room to put something boy-like on top, since the sound stopping meant he was probably to start knocking for me to open. I did that as quick and quietly as I could, but the knocks never came.
After a while I saw a light coming from one of the other apartments there. Apparently one of the neighboors went out partying that night, and confused the doors. Still it scared me a lot.

Another time it was the apartment owner, actually they never went into the apartments, so I never considered that posibility of they going.
Well I was sitting, watching TV in girl clothes, when all of a sudden a couple of knowck at the door, while I heard the owner voice saying "Hello, need to tell you something"
Quickly I shouted, "Just a second" as I run to get a boy pants and I removed the top clothes. I finally was back on the door, apparently all in boy mode, of course breathing fast, and all shaky, that the owner gave a really weird look.
He told me what was it about, and say goodbye. REally nothing but the hurry was, the scary part of someone knocking while I was all girly. Spooky.

With time, the school shores grow more and more, writting the fianl job or thesis took all my time, so the dressing time, dissapeared, no more Jessica. At least till the end of that time.
But then after that there wasn't even time, going back to parents house in the meantime, while looking for job and such, well, the girl side just went away, really far away.

Well enough of this historical parts.

Kisses
Jessica

Another dancing night.

Mmm, this one is a bit complicated, how to wrote about the Saturday dancing adventure, without making it sound just like a repeat of the other dancing adventures.

Perhaps I should write about the clothes, which except for the top, were all new (bought them all last year, just haven't used them yet). MM, no doesn't sound to interesting. By the way that skirt is bit problematic, several times it showed more than intended. Once air lift it all the way up. A few more times, the bag hanging aside put parts of the skirt up while sitting or standing.
Maybe about the thrill of going out of the hotel, passing by where other people were, mmm, sounds like something I talked before.
Or what about talking the fact this was the first time Jessica was in an elevator, even when I have thought once before of never going into an elevator while girly dressed (because once as boy it happened I got trapped in a broken elevator, imagine the trauma of that happening while being Jessica)
Could it be about the excitement of going inside a new place in a different city. That it was a nice place. That there were lots of girls. That it lacks air conditioning, so it must be extremely hot on the summer. But then it was a dance place after all.
Talking of the first time I entered a girl's bathroom by escorting another girl, but maybe that’s not such a topic to write about long.
Also could describe how scary it was at the exit when some ugly nasty guy try to got my attention by grabbing my arm. It was spooky.

Hey haven't decided yet what or how to write about and already I see a lot of words.

Maybe let the chronicle for another day.

In the meantime

Kisses
Jessica

PS. Photo taken before going out, unfortunately no outside photos this time :(

Sometimes I wonder

AS of today I have never really put to tought about Jessica in the long term times.
Yes I had those plans as for 2007, for thats as far as it goes.
And by next year if Jessica still exist it would be probably the same.

But, should I be doing with Jessica some long term thinking and planning?
Something like "where is Jessica in 5, 10, 20 years???", or maybe "Whats the final purpose of this girly side??"
As of now, its more exciting, more surprising just do it like this, in short terms, to see what new things, to set goals that are no too far in time.

But if the boy side, has those long term plans and dreams, shouldn't Jessica have her owns, or have some that both sides share. Yet I don't put myself into really thinking about that.

Perhaps I am too scared of what I would thought.


Kisses
Jessica

There's got to be a problem lying among that. (Jessica's Wardrobe)

So I now will let the world take a little peek into Jessica's wardrobe.
So due to me doing the cleaning of the apartment this weekend I removed the clothes of both hangers to do a bit of cleaning back.

And , Oh the HORROR, the two clothes mountains, are now almost the same size, oh my.
That's got to be the symptom of some kind of problem. To have almost the same volume of girly clothes as boy clothes, mmmm, definitively something that shows my lost of contact with reality.

Or perhaps no, since girls usually have lot more clothes than boys. I remember how my sisters never got enough room in their closets while I was using less than half of mine (and they were same size)

It's a lot, there are still a few I haven't used, so there is still enough clothes to try outfits and combinations before repeating.

Bye for today

"Clothes Shopaholic" Jessica

As can easily be seen, I love blue and purple

The sound of time and illusions.

I brought Jessica back to life yesterday, for the first time of this new year 2007.
And this time for some reason I got more notice of the sounds.
The music in the background, more a sound telling me of the passing of time than the music itself.
The sound of the hangers and clothes as i take them out of the closet. The sounds of the makeup utilities as I move them inside their box looking for the right lipstick color. he creators of this illusion.
The clicks of the camera on every photo as a sound of those little evidence pics.
The sound of my heels as I walked in the room, as a tic-tac for the waiting to decide "should I go out or no?"
The cricky sound of my nails against the table a I try to get courage to grab the keys.
The broom of the car engine starting as I was fleeing away from the inside of the four walls, an illusion of an outing for I was inside trapped inside a metal jail.
The click-clack of the heels later when I decided to take a walk around the house late at night, the sounds of a mere illusion. Like the sounds of a ghost. And wow, they sounded a thousand times looouder as I walked in the night.
The sound of the water against my face as I remove all, as the illusion fades away, as the time to let Jessica back away comes again.

Those were the sounds.

Kisses
Spooky Jessica.

The logo in pic, was created by my friend Lizbeth, a thousand thanks to her

New Year, New resolutions, New Shoes.

With this post I open 2007.
Before anything else, let’s say "I wish you all the best for this new year 2007"


Why is it the first picture that Jessica post for 2007, and there is no Jessica in it.
Still haven't got a chance to properly dress up and all to do a proper photo and I want it to be good.
Instead of that I want to show up two of my new pair of shoes. Well the only new ones are the red ones (only used them bitsy in home to try them on and mold them to my fatty feet). The brown ones already used them a bit, even dancing in them, but since I haven't yet show them up, so.
I like those shoes with short roundy tips, I think they make the feet look shorter (maybe I am just crazy), and the red ones look so elegant, and the brown ones have that cute flower.
But enough of shoes, as if it were not enough that as of now I have more girl shoes than boy shoes (Oh my, that’s creepy)

Now to this year resolutions, I have to move over the ones I missed from last year (but I will change one a bit), and to add a few more for this year.

So here they are:

first last year failures

1- Loose some of the extra weight - I know, it’s the one that most people say and the one least accomplished (I even failed it last year) but this year I will try it with a new focus.
2- Decide if I really want to tell someone about Jessica (changed from telling to deciding)

next the new ones

3- Go out as Jessica during day light (that's spooky)
4- Go and do a regular activity as Jessica (something like going to buy an ice cream, or the movies, or shopping, something day to day)
5- Get a nail job or manicure
6- Ask about the hair removal (just ask, depending on the answer might decide to give it a try, and no longer need to ...yuik..)

and finally the continuation of a few things

7- Continue going out as Jessica and have fun ( at least go out dancing the same number of times as last year)
8- Keep letting the hair grow

yep those 8 sound right, let’s see in one year how many of them I did.


Bye for now

Kisses
Spooky Jessica

About my new focus to the weight loss, well I decided to start with the exercise, so if I do exercise one day I put one point, but if I didn't do exercise I took point one away. NO shopping, No new clothes or stuff, no fancy meals, unless I do a specific set of points.
Basically doing exercise I got reward, not doing it I don't get reward, too many bad points I get punishment (but I won't think of that, since I plan not to get bad points)